Whats happening to me??

LegacyUser

I am a third level student in Dublin heading into my third year of a four year course pending the results of my repeats.
My problem is that ever since I moved to Dublin from a rural part of the country I have struggled emotionally, financially and physically...
This may sound weird but now for the last three years I havn't had any ability to do my course and most days I struggle to make a appearance and miss alot of class contact time that I can't make up.
My point is that I am unable to do anything, concentrate and some nights I just cry myself to sleep. I am honestly not home sick otherwise I would have given up a couple years ago and came home. It's only recently I've started to have weird thoughts...that maybe I'd be better off if I wasn't here..
I have seen my doctor and explained this to her but she just blew me off and said I was hormonal!!(yea for the last three years) So now I just don't know where to turn to...I'm home now for the next couple months on summer holidays. I live in such a rural place that I don't know where I can get another doctor and another problem is that I have a GMS card and I can't afford to pay for a doctor...I am also €2,000 in debt with no current employment...what do I do???

wylo

I think you need to put more effort into finding a good doctor. You sound very depressed and only a professional can diagnose and help you from there onwards.

LegacyUser

perhaps a councillor to talk to ?
samaritans ?

do you have a close friend to talk with.
don't keep it all to yourself

LegacyUser

OP here,
I have tried to find a new doc but literally from where I live it's impossible and I have no way to pay a €50 fee..where I come from everyone know everyone and everyone elses business and theirs no escaping it..Hense, why I hate comming home for the summer!
As of yet, I cannot find a councellor..I just live too far away and I have no transport....and to make things worse my best friend has just gone off to America for the rest of the summer..She has had knowledge of this as we have lived together for the past three years...

Sinall

What about your college doctor? I know when I was in college, the doctors surgery was still open all summer. And in my day they saw you for free, although I don't know if that is still the case.

I know you would have to go back up to Dublin for that. Perhaps ring the college doctor to see if he/she would have a chat with you over the phone and you could decide together what to do next.

Colleges also have counselling services and it sounds like that would be a good idea.

I really feel for you OP and I'm sorry you are going through a tough time. What about your parents, would you feel comfortable talking to them about it?

LegacyUser

'Sinall'
I am currently over 250kms away from my college...I wish I was back in Dublin...
I think I will just have to wait for a couple weeks to sort this mess out! Will just have to try and concetrate on different things for a few weeks...
Hopefully this works

Sinall

It's worth giving your college doctor a ring. They might be able to recommend a GP in your area or can at least have a proper chat with you over the phone and let you know what they think.

Hang in there. Be kind to yourself, try to do things that you enjoy. Try to distract yourself for the time being. Try to make sure you are eating well (this can have a big impact on moods etc) and get enough exercise/fresh air. If you are feeling really down, ring the Samaritans, they are there any time you want to talk and are completely non-judgmental.

LegacyUser

Thank you sinall...
I contacted the college doctor this morning and she was really helpfull...She talked things through with me and is currently looking for services which I can use which are close to home...She also wants me to come up and pay her a visit as soon as...so maybe I'll try and make that a priority and get things sorted.
Thanks for all the advice!

Sinall

That's great. I'm glad to hear it. You aren't alone. Lots and lots of people feel the same way. For some reason, every February when I was doing my undergraduate degree I used to have a mini-meltdown, think it was the time of year and academic pressure seemed to be piled on at that stage. The college doctor was very helpful to me and I went to the counselling service a couple of times.

If you ever need anyone to talk to you are welcome to PM me at anytime. It sounds like your college doctor is very understanding. I hope things improve for you. xxx