What should I do??

LegacyUser

I've suffered from depression for the last number of years more so i the last number of months.....I'm in my early 20's, I've gone to councelling and I'm on medication but I havn't found that this has helped... I am now basically at my wits end, I've started to really cut myself and my thoughts and judgements are really clouded to the point that I don't know what I'm doing here anymore!
I've had alot going on in my family since early childhood and I just simply can't make head nor tail of it and what makes it even worse is that it's still going on and I can't do anything to stop it....I don't live at home anymore because I couldn't take it and I feel guilty as I've left my little brother stuck in a terrible place at home...I should be protecting him but I fear for myself...
What do you think I should do??

Oryx

The simple answer is dont give up on the help available to you. Even if you feel that, up to now, it hasnt worked. Try again.

This is just a message board, and as such, is limited in what it can advise for you. Given the complexity of your situation and the fact that you are self harming, all people can do here really, is advise you to return to your GP or therapist (or get a new one) and seek real world help. Perhaps other posters will advise of online organisations who are there to help with your problems also.

I know you are worried about your brother, but for now, concentrate on yourself. You will be better able to help him when you yourself are stronger.

Apart from that, this board is always here for you to let off steam, air your thoughts and to ask for a listening ear. I hope things in your life begin to look more positive, but at any point if you feel overwhelmed, post here or PM a regular poster from this forum if you need to talk.

the_dark_side

ok... before you do anymore harm to yourself, think of your brother. You need to keep strong as you can if you are to be any help to him. It sounds as if you are in a very messy situation here and you need support of others yourself. Are there any community resource centres you can call to? Or a community leader of some sort, there is help closer at hand then you may think... dont be afraid to ask someone.

LegacyUser

I'm at the point where harming myself is a daily occurance... I have seen both my GP and councellor in recent weeks and I cannot face going back to them, not to say that they have both tried but I can't even absorb a single conversation that I've had with either of them or anyone else come to think of it...
I just want to get my brother and myself away completely from all this before things get even worse than they already are....!!!

da_shivsta

I've been depressed for 5 years, since I was 14. Basicall since my uncle died, or that's at least what I associate with the start of my depression.
I've been to counselling and was never put on medication as I didn't want that.
TBH I was so positive and thought everything was fine but the last year or so I've gotten worse. Thing is, I don't know if it is that I'm worse or whether because now I have a long-term boyfriend I'm more aware of it. (He notices, asks if I'm ok, or I just realise how much happier he seems than me etc.)
I don't self harm. I'm often just miserable and cry for no reason. I often think about dying but not n any serious way.
Because I've tried it already, I don't see counselling as the solution FOR ME.
I don't know what to do.