Do you find depression worse in your home town?

iguana2005

Lived abroad for years...am in my late 30's...single and working and renting...back home now down south ireland 8 mnths..

Suffered depressin(clinical) all my life and am back on meds again..no biggie have an alcoholic mum so in the genes...

woke up this morning...negative thougts were horrendouse...couldnt get dressed...whats the point...spent afternoon sleeping on sofa...was embaressed as some electoral candidates called and one of the girls looked my age and there was i still in nightclothes and she up and about being normal...

Cant believe this time last year i was self suffieient in another country although i was miserable too...have done so much travelling yet when i come home i feel a complete failure and misery...

live on my own...havent spoken to anyone today...feel a little better now(6.30pm) which is typical as its when I start to feel better usually..

Just having a rant...antidepressents dont seem to work for me...am wishing myself dead...i cant wait...

Nevyn

Yes it can be harder to cope, are you due back to see your dr again?
Are you seeing a counsellor or anyone else atm?
If being back at home sets you back then can you start planning to move out again?

strongbluebell

I'll second that, if you've been on medication for a while maybe it needs to be reviewed or changed. I'd suggest checking in with your G.P.

Maybe moving back home is sparking off memories of earlier unresolved issues? Would some counselling help, again the G.P. is probably the best place to start.
Could you maybe make contact with some old friends? Are you spending a lot of time alone?

iguana2005

strongbluebell wrote: »

I'll second that, if you've been on medication for a while maybe it needs to be reviewed or changed. I'd suggest checking in with your G.P.

Maybe moving back home is sparking off memories of earlier unresolved issues? Would some counselling help, again the G.P. is probably the best place to start.
Could you maybe make contact with some old friends? Are you spending a lot of time alone?

No have a great circle of friends althoug i am the only single one..all with kids..dont know what it is...i just hate my hometown and cant understand why anyone would want to live there...

yes will get to doc this week as becoming more recureent..

Beruthiel

iguana2005 wrote: »

.antidepressents dont seem to work for me.

If teh antid's are not working then get yourself back to the GP and discuss it with them asap.

starchild

i think a lot of people feel like this in their hometown, im not sure what it is but i think some of us maybe feel like we are under the microscope back at home

achievements seem to be less and problems seem to be more, my personal belief is that we didnt have much self esteem or belief in ourselves when we lived at home and when we come back it seems to surface again.

a possible solution i think would be to move out of your hometown if possible

LegacyUser

Ive lived in the UK for 8 months now and while I've had my difficulties here I'd be feeling far worse if I had to move back to my hometown. Especially during these times everyone back home seems to be that bit more downbeat.

Is there any way you can get yourself back to the UK? It sounds like your not suited to the small town life if you feel embarassed by relatively insignificant things such as what some stranger may/may not think of you when calling to your door! Anyway for the moment try not to think about that too much.

I know when your feeling depressed you suffer from tunnel vision so these things do affect you greatly when you're not thinking straight, so I'd suggest some counselling in addition to your meds, to get your head straight again.

I can imagine that a change of location after many years abroad could do all sorts to the mind so take things one step at a time.

Think of it this way, with so many unemployed now noones gonna look twice at you keeping to yourself in the house, so take things one step at a time. So,get up in the morning, get dressed/showered, and if you need a nap, take one, but try not to oversleep.

Make an effort to talk/visit a friend every day or two, try go out for a walk in the nice weather and keep an eye on the oul diet.

Hope that helps

LegacyUser

got back to ireland after 7 years back a small town ,no work no options, just a bleak place with bleak people .trying to keep up beat ,but there is just a negitive buzz around now with the state of things .im going back to the us .i hope things are better for the people of this town soon .they do not know what they have created with the celtic tiger.