Don't know what to do??

LegacyUser

Hey...
I 've got a bit of an issue and I feel as if I can't sort it out...here goes...
I'm in college at the minute and I feel as if I can't get motivated to do anything anymore...exams are only a few weeks away and I've four continious assessments due in the next week....
My problem is that I've some really deep family issues that has only comming to surface with me in the last couple of months...It's come to the stage that there taking over my life any that I don't feel as if I've a place here anymore...
I've had alot to deal with myself over the last three years with physical illness and other stuff as I am just completely lost and don't know what to do! I've only recently recognised how much I turn to alcohol to deal with things and that I cannot keep a steady relationship going for any length of time due to doing something stupid....
I went to my Doctor a six weeks ago and he put me on anti depressants and referred me to a councellor...He thought this would help I guess....I've taken the tablets (reluctatly might I add) and have gone to councelling but I just can't open up, I can't truely speak out about what's going on and what's happening...I just don't know where to go from here...it's not that I feel uncomfortable with the councellor because she's really nice, the words just aren't there...I'm at a point where I've had barely any sleep and feeling all over the place....
Has anyone out there any advice on what I should do next because I'm just at the stage where I just don't know anymore...
Sorry about the long ramble..

Karen09

well as for college exams etc can always be differed till next year if u dont feel ur up to it. ur takin the right step in takin the tablets, and seeing the councellor. u seem to be able to open up on this a bit, perhaps its something to do wit not bein able to see who ur talkin to, so keep it up, even through this ud be amazed how much getting things off ur chest helps, a problem shared and all that. no one can tell u wat u need to do, u seem to be takin the right steps. i would keep the drinkin up, it never helps, have had alot of experience in that department!! take care.

steod

I have faced a similar situation as yourself OP, personal issues, pressure from college and depression. Have been on anti depressants too and they do help so stick with them.

Talk your lecturers about deferring your exams you should take this pressure off yourself asap college can be delayed. If you can take this weight off yourself you can look at the other issues.

If you have trouble talking to your counsellor perhaps try writing things down and showing them to the counsellor. Even putting words down on paper can make a huge difference when you have trouble expressing them.

LegacyUser

I hear what you's are saying but being honest I've been to my tutors, I have been given options but I'm really reluctant to defer my exam because I'm afraid I'll never go back!!
I've tried writing emotions/feelings down on a piece of paper but all I ever do is tear it to shreads...I can't get an appointment to see my councellor for a few weeks..and I'm like I can't wait that long amd don't know who to turn to...I've taken the anti depressants as I'm supposed to but at this minute I find as if their having no effect and that if anything there making me feel more bogged down...