Depressed & on the dole

LegacyUser

If I think about it I've probably always been depressed, I don't really remember that much of my childhood but my mother died when I was small, which may be the reason why I don't remember. In my teens it was put to me being a moody teen, but I thought I was a bit worse then the people around me. Of course I completely ignored this thought and continued on. I went to college didn't make many friends there, I've always been a bit of a loner and the pull to go off wandering by myself and not interacting as much as I should have was too much. I also find it really hard to get close to people when there's more than one around. While in my final year of college, I got stung by someone and that made my depression worse and one of my close friends(probably closest) got cancer. I stopped caring about college, I just barely scraped a pass. I left college and went home, didn't really want to go home but I wanted to be closer to the friend but soon after they died. I'm a matter of a month everything changed, no college, no job, friends all at work and gone from a city to a town where I didn't know anyone.

After about two years little has changed, except I had to move out of the family home so I'm renting an apartment. I did end up going to the doctor, he put me on tablets that at first made me worse, then made me fell better but in the end they just stopped working. An appointment was made to someone better able to help. I missed the first one because the appointment letter was sent to the family home and I got it the day after the appointment. They sent another and I went. Grand, they made an appointment for the next week but when that day came I couldn't even get out of the bed. They never sent me another appointment.

It's easy to say go back to the doctor or ring for another appointment, but I can't even go to my friends or ring them, a lot of the time I can't even get out of bed or go to the kitchen. I don't know how to say to a friend that I need help, even just to talk to them I think would help but I can't seem to get the courage to start the conversation.

tbh

you have to go back to the doctor dude. I was in kind of the same boat myself for a while, I'm supposed to see a specialist every six months, missed, thought I'd be in trouble and didn't go back for five years. When I did go back I was crapping it, but they didn't say anything at all, they were just glad to see me.

If you do nothing else, at least phone for an appointment. Tell the receptionist you are having problems getting out of bed, maybe they'll send a doctor out to see you, maybe she'll just be more understanding and persistent if you miss the appointment, but either way it'll be nothing she hasn't heard before, in fact you probably won't be the first person today to tell her.

If you're depressed, you're not going to be able to even think about facing your other issues until you can sort out your lows. It would appear the only way you can do that is with medication, and the only way you can get that is to go to your doctor. You are maybe four or five steps away from a better life, but you have to take all the steps, and you have to take them in order. the first one is always the hardest - stop reading this, google your doctors phone number and ring for an appointment.

KittyeeTrix

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but I can't seem to get the courage to start the conversation.

I think you have already started the first step by posting here.......
Tomorrow, just pick up the phone to make an appointment and take the second step
Best of luck to ya:)

holly1

Been there and the fact you have posted here is great,please follow through you wont be sorry,the very best of luck.