Troubled

LegacyUser

hi. not a rant......but yet it is a rant..... i'm lonely. I feel I have to put up a brave face to all who know me during day- even end up giving advice and laughin an havin the craic.
But then i go home. I feel lifes slippin away... I feel I do nothing for me. I want to do things and make great plans in my mind and then I'm too scared to follow through. I have several commitments. Teenage kids. I'm seperated. Family issues. My parents are ill. It feels like everything has to be done and yet I seem to be getting nowhere. One step forward, three steps back. Housework- everything feels too much. Bills are always paid but seem to be getting bigger all the time. Im thinking of going to my doctor to ask if he thinks i rank as depressed? Or maybe i'm pscytsophrenic...spellin crap there sorry......really feelin like a bad actor in a bad play.......and the play is my life.....

Kevster

Hi,

I doubt that you are Schizophrenic. To me, you just sound like you have too much on your plate right now and that - yes - it is depressing you. You need to relinquish some of your responsibilities and then learn not to take so much on. Things might seem too important to simply stop taking care of, but - for your own sake - you MUST learn to just get rid of them and saying to yourself: 'I dont have time for this'.

Kevin

Dudess

You seem stressed and consumed by negative thoughts and self doubt - definitely go to your doctor. Everything's going to be ok, but you're having trouble seeing that right now so if there's a professional you can talk to about it, then go for it.