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bettyboop20

Hi all, I'm new here, I'm Emer, hola! anyways i should get to the point, basically this forum is the closest to my heart, as i don't like to go to bed before 4am unless i really have to but this isn't what my post is about, I once again, seem to find myself with few and far between friends, i guess i should explain, as a child i was awkward, and shy, and had friends on and off, and as a teenager it was the same thing, and summers are a nightmare, as most so called friends seem to disappear, when i met my boyfriend when i was 16, he wasn't the best person in the world ( not abusive but certainly didn't encourage friendships) after i left school, because i had never made an effort, i was friendless, i started college and made 2 friends, we have very little in common, and as im starting a new college, i doubt I'll see them much anyway, I don't believe I'm a bad person, or that I'm totally odd, and I seem to get on with people, but I just can't seem to maintain friendships for longer than say, 2 or 3 years, I feel like such a sad person, to really not have friends i see on a regular basis at all, i want to get out there and do things, im only 20, but seem to be stuck at home a lot, I am quite close to my sister, and we do things, but its not exactly the same, ive just broken up with my boyfriend after almost 4 years, and i really feel like i want to get out there now, I have quite a few friends on the internet, who I've met through forums etc, but real friends seem to evade me :P anyways, i know i must come across as incredibly sad, and feel free to not reply folks, after my long ramble! lol just wondering, is anyone else in the same situation, or have been? thanks all