Down again

LegacyUser

Hi guys just want to get a few things off my mind,

Have been very down depressed of late, Was on tablets from the doc but as has happened before you start feeling better on them so then think its all grand went back to him earler and got hat part sorted at least. Just want to actually write this all down, Last summer walked out of my job freaked a load of friends out by dissapearing for nearly 2 weeks has people calling or sending members of their family it got so bad, tried to end it all thankfully didn't work, am now in a new job which suprisengly is a good one and me obviousley hav ing the old magic refernce this is good. Have some problems there one individual in particular and my boss is aware of the person and seems to be removing unecessary dealing I have with this person.

The problem is that I was off sick with stress very recently as well so may have no job to go to. Also I disappered for the last week absolutley freked my family out With our family they are great belivers in just shake yourself out of it. It upsets me that I can treat the people that I love that badley I dont mean to but something just goes in my head adn I need to alone.

I find them very difficult to talk to my mum passed away when I was quite young found her body and this has never been talked about at all really. A few years ago I had a miscarriage never told them a bit of this in fact othe rthan my doctor only one friend knows about this

Sorry about the long post just wanted to get some of there things written down if for nothing else taht I can actually just see some of it in writing. as my handwriting is appally

Kevster

Hey,

Don't worry about the way you have treated your family at the moment. Primarily, you have to look after yourself and, if you need breaks from people from time to them, then you should take them. You appear to have had some very bad experiences in your life but, you know, these things can make us stronger in character. There is no doubt in my head that you are a fighter and, if you just persist with life, things will eventually turn good for you.

Stay focussed on what you need to do. However, some days you will feel low and it is on those days that you need to know how to take a step back and take things easy.

Take care my friend,
Kevin.

ricey

Im the same bro. Im in a bad state of depression right now and my family are like yours, oh stop moaning and all that crap. But what they dont seem to realise il kill myself and i have tried to twice! Keep the head up bro, im trying to too i know its hard but keep in contact with your GP nad see if ya can work things out.

Best of luck k

LegacyUser

Hi guys

thanks for your replys things still looking dark but as that Dream song went things can only get better. Got told by my dad im a waste of space and dont think I'll have a job left tomerow so thats going to be a fun call to make and see. Just sittin herre feeling miserable dad and sis both avoiding me at the moment have another cup of tea bout the 20th of the day and see if that will help.

As i said thakns for the replys XX

Kevster

Hi again,

If your family are only proving to be a hindrance at the moment, then perhaps it is best to just start ignoring them too. Regarding your job, you better get it sorted out and not let yourself slip-away. You have to find employment to get by in life. Do not go in tomorrow expecting to lose it because that will set you on a long path of negative/pessimistic thinking.

Go in tomorrow knowing full-well that you already have a job and won't be requiring to look for a new one any time soon. You don't want to slip-away to nothing here. Stay with us and remain focussed.

Kevin.

Nevyn

It can be really scarey when you have a couple of very down days when you have had a bout of depression, you get freaked and stressed out that you will end up back there.

The thing to remember that life is ups and downs, good days and bad days.
We are not meant to be going around deliriously happy as much as we are not meant to be going around depressed.

You are down at the moment but it won't last and hopefully soon you will have an ok day and them more of them and then a really good day and then back to an ok one.

It;s tough but you'll get here.