Stressed out

LegacyUser

Im 22, today i found out last night my big brother(39) tried to kill himself and threatned to kill my dad. My bro has a history of gambling problems and he has run up huge debts in the past and ran off to England on several occasions and left the family to pick up the pieces. He came home 6 months ago with over 5 grand to pay bk the debts and claimed this time he was gonna make a go of his life(We later found out he stole that money from the pub he worked in London)

Anyway he worked 2 jobs when he came back got a car rented a flat and decided to set up a taxi business. Anyway long story short didnt work out and he ended up living with my sister. Last night he took cocaine(We never knew he took drugs) and at 2am the police found him standing on the bridge ready to jump- He was screaming saying he was gonna murder our father(Dad fired him cos he found out he stole from him) and the cops took him to a local mental hospital.

Found out about it this morning and im stressed outa my eyeballs about it I dont know what to feel Im drinking wine as im writing this Im so stressed over this. Im the 2nd youngest of 11 kids and the rest of the family said they dont care that they are sick of him dropping their problems on them. I dont care either but For some reason its taking a major toll on me and im stressed outta my head. To top it all off my mothers dead 20 years tomorrow and I have so much in my head right now I just wanna kill someone

Not really but im so angry and upset I just wanna cry

Victor

I think you need to talk to someone properly, either friends and family or if you really need to even the Samaritans. Talking helps, saying things out loud often helps us accpet them in our hearts and minds, until then, we're not so sure.

While you might be angry, you need to let off steam in a safe way. Violence is not a solution, some vigourous exercise might be.

www.samaritans.org