In loving my friend

kacexkaso

I've known her for about seven years and ever since the day I met her I like her, but at the time didn't know what the odd feelings I was experiencing were. I finally realized that I was bisexual and my like grew to love. She happens to know that I am bisexual and she also knows that I like her. I always have joked around with her etc. She is straight, keep that in mind, but a few of our friends thought/thinks she is bisexual. She also happened to be my first kiss. Which I assumed was a one time thing. It has happened about four times after that. Some of the times I asked her but a few of the times she asked me. No not directly asked me but kept hinting at it. I also happen to be the only girl that she has ever kissed. If you need any more info I'd be happy to give what I can. Do you think she is bisexual? And do you think there is a possibility I might have a chance?

I'd also like to add that she has always said that I'm the easiest person to talk to. I've always been her shoulder to cry on. I've been thinking about hanging out with her one day and having a serious conversation about the depth of my feelings for her. I'm just not quite sure how to go about talking to her about it. Its not that I'm afraid of what she'll say or do. I really just am not sure how to start the conversation off and what to say.

The first time we kissed I was a bit nervous so she told me to just think of the movie Thirteen. In case you haven't seen it Ill give you a little info. There is a scene in the movie where one girl, who has never been kissed, tells her friend that. Well her and her friend end up kissing and after they are done the girl's friend says 'I hardly felt that' so the girl jumps on her and kisses her again. Well after my friend and I kissed she quoted the movie but I just ignored her and went to bed. That also leaves me wondering is she was wanting me to do it again or something else.

Recently we had spent the day together, along with a friend of hers. We had a very good time, enjoying each other’s company like normal. As we left her friends house and headed for home I got up the nerve to tell her how I felt. I never got a chance to until then. So I told her that I was in love with her and that it felt good to finally get it off my chest. Also that I was sorry to interrupt a story she was telling. It didn’t bother her one bit and she told me that it was fine. So we get home and I was about to exit the car I gave her a hug goodbye and then another. A second later I asked for a goodnight kiss. She gave me one, just a peck on the lips. I said that it seemed a little off and so she gave me another. We made plans to hang out sometime soon when it would be possible for me to stay over.

Sorry it is so long but its hard to fit seven years into such a small space.

triv88

Well,she insticated the first kiss...She no doubt feels very close to you.I'm going to presume that you are both quite young?..shes obviously at least bi-curious,only time will say whether its a passing phase or not.Has she had any meaningfull relationships with guys before?

kacexkaso

if you consider nineteen young then sure. Also, shes been in a few relationship with men and generally none of them treated her good.

triv88

kacexkaso wrote: »

if you consider nineteen young then sure. Also, shes been in a few relationship with men and generally none of them treated her good.

Thats may be why she feels such a strong connection with you,cos you offer her the love and respect that no guy has given her.She may not want to pursue a physical realationship with you,but she as sure as hecks needs you

kacexkaso

Thanks. I need her just as much if not much more then that.