Am I crazy?

lezizi

Ok this probally sounds crazy, and it will probally be long so apologies in advance.
Since I have been younger, as long as i can remember, I have been having dreams about dead people. They aren't dead people I know or anything but the dreams are so clear it is like they show me their life and how it was or maybe how they died or what they have done wrong.
I'll give you an example. A few weeks ago i dreamt i was standing in a prison cell, there was a box there with the name Iain on it. When i turned around there was a man standing there just looking at me he had all marks on his neck, I knew he had commited suicide. Then he started walking and I was walking with him, like we were walking through a film of his life or something, I saw that he had kidnapped a little girl,I also saw the horrible things that he done to her maybe that was why he was in prison, but it was like he was trying to tell me how sorry he was and how guilty he felt. His face and details are so clear, If i saw a picture of him I would know it was him, if you know what i mean.
Thats just one example, but the strange thing is that they dont actually talk to me in words or anything they just show me images or ii wake up with a terrible feeling of guilt or remorse or whatever they are feeling.
This never happens during the day, only at night it could happen once or twice a week then it mightn't happen for a few weeks. I don't like it, it freaks me out, my boyfriend laughs when i tell him.
Ive only once dreamed of someone dead i know, again he didnt talk to me but he was showing me images and i just had a feeling of happiness, i walked in to a room and he had written on a piece of paper, I am sorry, I will always love you, peace love and thoughts my lady. When i woke up I knew he was happy where he was and i havent been feeling as bad about his death since.
Ive told my mother about this and she isn't shocked she said I have been doing this since i was a child. When my grandad died when i was four, my mam said i came in a few weeks later and said ' i was talking to pop in the garden, he told me look after you that it will be alll ok' She said' You know pop is dead and in heaven' and I said' Yes silly but he still comes to see me'. I can't remeber this but my mother says she is convinced that I was reaally talking to him.
Sorry for the length of this Icould go on there is so much. I dont know if I'm looking for advice or to hear your experiences, I don't know i just thought I'd share and see if ye have any explanation.
Thanks

Oryx

None of that sounds at all strange to me. But I know youre probably wondering if its your imagination or like you said, if you are crazy. Well, you write like a sane person.;) No, I dont think you are crazy, you sound like someone who can pick up spirit messages very easily. Its a very confusing thing to come to terms with, it can take a while to accept it as part of you without being scared or feeling daft. Its up to you whether you use it or allow it to continue happening, or close it down temporarily till youre ready.

For now, try not to be scared or freaked out, and dont dwell on it. Just look on it as something unique that happens to you. A kind of unusual talent.

hiorta

You seem to have an emerging mediumistic ability which comes forward when your everyday consciousness is 'resting'.

Take your time with this and please ask your idea of a Higher Power to give what help can be given to those whose lives you are touching.

lezizi

Any advice on how would i go about using it or maybe tapping in to it a bit more.
The fact that it happens doesnt really freak me out its just the dreams are so graphic some of the things i see arent very nice, and i can get horrible images in my head or sometimes horrible feelings if that makes sense.
Last year when i was in bed it was the middle of the night and i was sitting up in bed talking to some figure that was there, when i came around and realised what i was doing i was terrified.

Oryx

lezizi wrote: »

Any advice on how would i go about using it or maybe tapping in to it a bit more.
The fact that it happens doesnt really freak me out its just the dreams are so graphic some of the things i see arent very nice, and i can get horrible images in my head or sometimes horrible feelings if that makes sense.
Last year when i was in bed it was the middle of the night and i was sitting up in bed talking to some figure that was there, when i came around and realised what i was doing i was terrified.

This is going to sound really simple. Learn to meditate. Just that. You may find going to a class may help at first. Even a yoga class if they have a good meditation session as part of it. Learning to calm your mind, and linking in to your subconcious is one of the first ways to get used to this, get better and have more control.

As far as the graphic dreams go, you have the ability to stop them and control them, even if you think you dont. And any feelings you get are not yours, just remind yourself of that every time it happens. They dont belong to you, you can shrug them off.

kshiel

You dont sound crazy. It does sounds like you may have an strong ability to communicate with spirit as KtK said meditation is a great way to learn to open to this slowly and a valuable tool to remember is you are the one in control and can stop this at any time. I remember when I started I used to talk to them as I was cleaning the house or doing normal mundane stuff and I found it quiet relaxing and interesting at times. Make it clear what you want and what you dont want for the moment and take your time and have a little fun with it. Best of luck..

6th

Of course its possible that you are crazy (or whatever the correct term is) but without consulting a professional you'll never know.

Whats important is, do you think you are crazy?

Persoanlly, based on everything you discribed I would presume so. I know plenty of sane people who've had similar experiences and some alot more extreme.

Oryx

6th wrote: »

Of course its possible that you are crazy (or whatever the correct term is) but without consulting a professional you'll never know.

Whats important is, do you think you are crazy?

Persoanlly, based on everything you discribed I would presume so. I know plenty of sane people who've had similar experiences and some alot more extreme.

Professionals will only give an opinion based on their beliefs and experience, you could end up asking just the wrong person, who might make you more uneasy about this.

I think myself and people like me are sane. Lots would say Im loop-the-loop.

hiorta

Lezizi, why would you wish to develop this faculty?

lezizi

Its not like i want to develop it, I just want to know what it is.I can't stop it happening, I wish it didnt happen but it does so I kinda want to know why it is happening or what it is.

kshiel

When these things happen what is your reasoning of it?

lezizi

I don't know i feel like its trying to tell me something or show me something

kshiel

With the dreams and the people in them have you ever tried to confirm them by checking out details given in the dreams other than your family (easier said than done at times)

Have you ever asked questions to these people within your dreams and got a response to enable you to maybe confirm or deny the information. Remember dreams are frought with your own bits and pieces mixed in as well and I am sure it might be hard to tell the difference at times or are the dreams totally around these people showing you their story?

It might be a good idea to write down some questions you have been asking yourself and try and answer them honestly for yourself. It may help.

lezizi

No I have never tried to confirm them, I wouldnt know where to start. I think maybe i should wirte down what i remember straight away.
The dreams are usually all about the person showing me there story but it is broken up im bits if you know what i mean, it's like im going through their life, like im watching everything they have done, like someone elses life flashing in front of my eyes

Oryx

lezizi wrote: »

No I have never tried to confirm them, I wouldnt know where to start. I think maybe i should wirte down what i remember straight away.
The dreams are usually all about the person showing me there story but it is broken up im bits if you know what i mean, it's like im going through their life, like im watching everything they have done, like someone elses life flashing in front of my eyes

There are ways of getting more information, if you want to. But I dont know if I could explain it all here. As for confirming, I think thats a very frustrating thing to try to do. I would get used actually doing this first, before moving on to sharing the info.

Genghiz Cohen

Hate you tried to find a convice named Iain who killed himself? maybe if you could it could prove it's not your imagination, and therefore you are mentally fine.

kshiel

Writing down the dream and details you remember and how you feel is good as maybe something will triger with you after a while or when you read it back. And I would agree with KtK sometimes it is very very frustrating to confirm info when you do this sort of thing but when or in cases where you can it does give you that sense of ok I didn't make that, up for yourself. Passing on information to other people you wouldn't know is a whole other thing and would require a lot of practice before enbarking on.

I am not sure how you could get more details through the dream state I generally use what I have in the waking state and simply ask the questions I need or go into the energy/images I am given (in short) I am sure its more complicated in the dream state.

Let us know how you get on with this and I do wish you well.

kim.