Feeling low...

TheJoker

Apologise if this doesn’t make much sense to anybody, but what the hell...

As some of you may know from reading other threads in this section my mother was recently diagnosed with breast cancer. Luckily it was caught in the very early stages and thankfully she had the operation today to remove the tumour. Another scan is booked in tomorrow to make sure it didn’t spread....fingers crossed.

Anyways here is the thing, was in a popular night club...let’s call it CFJ. Anyway was having a good time, when a friend of mine started slagging me to some complete randomer. Not the worst thing in the world....but we have always had this kinda “your ma” or your “auld wan” joke going on. He turns around to me...looking fairly pissed off...punches me (only in the shoulder) and says you are some fella to say that and the state of your mam in the hospital...

As you can imagine this really affected me. I walked out of the toilets to find him, what I was going to do when I found him I wasn’t sure. Eventually I decided that it was best to leave. It took me about 2 hours to walk the 4 miles home, but in that time all I could thing about what he had said. He has been a very good friend of the family’s for the last 3 years but I can’t but think that this is what he is really thinking. I was really upset on the way home. It was the first time I properly cried in a number of years. To be honest I don’t think I want “friends” like that around me at the moment. I am trying to concentrate on the positive things for now that my mam is coming home tomorrow and she is still with us. Because I am the oldest I was always the mature one, the strong one...but I don’t feel like that now. Tonight was the first time I just wanted someone to talk to; I have recently volunteered to train as a Samaritan. Although I didn’t make contact with them I felt that if I needed to there were there for me. I now know how valuable their services can be to people who are feeling low, although thankfully I didn’t have to avail of the services myself.

I guess there is no real question/problem; I just needed to communicate and felt this was the best place to do it. Thanks to the board’s admin for the great service this forum provides...keep it up!

Nothingcompares

after a few drinks this type of thing always seems a lot worse than it is (relationships with friends and attitudes). It will be alright in the morning. Tell your friend you were upset by his remark though if you think it would be appropriate.

missmatty

Just want to say my mam went through the same thing a few years ago and is still on treatment, so I can understand how you feel. I wish you and her all the best in the world, it's a hard thing to go through.

Also I had a fight lately with my friend/flatmate (long story, she started it) and she made a dig at me that because my mam was ill I expected her to feel sorry for me(I don't). But it cut me to the bone anyway and I won't forget it in a hurry. So I can also understand how you feel after what your friend said. All I can say is that they probably didn't mean to hurt you and you shouldn't completely write them off just yet.