Miss her so much i feel like killing myself

LegacyUser

I found out yesterday that my friend sammy from holland died
we never met each other in person but spent every day with each other for 3 years from the time we woke up to the time we went to sleep,

We met playing in a online game called wow and hit it off strait away,
She was one of those people every loved to be with and talk to and we got to know each other so well over the years we told each other stuff we never told anyone else.

She helped me through my anxiety and depression for the last four years and i recently got my claim as i took legal action and everything seemed to be going great and looking up.

We planed to meet up real soon i was going to fly over it was the reason i got over my depression and social anxiety .

She got had cancer and was in hospital for a few months then she got better and it went away and never came back.Things were great talked about what we were going to do and when i came over and i was so looking forward to finaly being with her i thought she was the one for me.

Then she got ill again with some form of infection in her intestin she didnt know what it was and never told me how serious it really was and i just made a get well card and sent it to her two weeks ago her friend told me she loved card and yesterday i got a email from a family member telling me she passed away on the 8th may.

And im so heart broken and angry and i cant stop crying this girl ive spoken to every day of the week for the past 3 years is gone and now i dont know what to do i cant handle it i miss her so much , i feel like killing myself for the chance we mite see each other again...

its not fair she was only 21 and i dont know what to do i just hurt so bad from her loss...

biko

Go on, grieve and cry and curse and cry some more.
But don't do anything drastic.

Zambia

Simple advice , well if it was me i would simply spend the rest of my life working for cancer charitys. better than wasting it by doing something drastic.

Best of Luck

Marksie

You are grieving heavily for the loss of someone dear to you.

I know what that is like, especially when it is someone young and it is unexpected.

However, cliched as it may seem, would Sammy want you to do this? and what of your family and those who love you?

Don't bottle up your grief but let it work its course through you.

For now give full expression to your grief but remember, you will honour sammy and her life more by living and fulfilling what you can do rather than by dying.
She helped you through crises in your life not so that you could end it, but live it.
Of course you miss her, but in moving through this and building a future, in some way you will keep her with you and her memory alive.
Take care

mark

Cancer-chick

I know that you are sad right now and probably very angry that Sammy died so young. It is very unfair.. but ..

The LAST thing Sammy would want you to do is to end your life .. She didnt get a choice in how her life would end.. the illness that she had took that choice away from her .. I know you said you have social phobias etc ..But so do many people and they can be overcome with time and patience .. You have the opportunity now to make the most of your life and do something with it .. I can pretty much guarantee you that Sammy would have loved that opportunity .. And that is the way to honour her memory now

Grieve for your friend hon.. Do something in her memory .. flowers at the beach or a balloon in the air with a message on it .. but dont throw your life away too.

Tak3n

wow hasn't been out 3 years so how could u meet her 3 years ago? it was released in 2005


dum dum dum..

Cancer-chick

Oh my god you have GOT to be kidding me ..

Mr CC is a WOW fan ill double check but in fairness .. if this is BS its pretty low .. I say this for obvious reasons

Owen

Definitely do something in her memory, but don't go all suicidal on us buddy, it's the last thing she would have wanted after her helping you through your problems. You keeping strong would be the best thing you could do to keep her memory alive!

horgan_p

dont they have like "memorial services" in WOW ? i think i read about one before.

you do something like that to honour her in a way that she'd approve of.

biko

Tak3n wrote:

wow hasn't been out 3 years so how could u meet her 3 years ago? it was released in 2005


dum dum dum..

Nov 2004 actually

Shinners23

OP - let me first start by saying I'm deeply sorrow for your loss. It is always awful to loose someone close to you but to loose someone who is in the prime of their life is always difficult to accept.

I agree with Zambia - I understand your grieving and your angry but this is all part of the process I'm afraid - it will get worse before it gets better.

I lost my best friend on the same day 2 years ago and if someone told me prior to the fact I would have said I wouldn't be able to survive without him - he was my everything. But you do. You find an inner strenght. You will get through it. In time you will thinking fondly of her and your time together.

If you ever want to talk just PM - trust me, I know what its like.

Bless You . xx

Tak3n

biko wrote:

Nov 2004 actually

that was the US version.. since she was from netherlands i assumed she played the EU version which was released some months later....

Tak3n

horgan_p wrote:

dont they have like "memorial services" in WOW ? i think i read about one before.

you do something like that to honour her in a way that she'd approve of.

Yeh theres a video of one getting raided quite funny

Marksie

Cancer-chick wrote:

Oh my god you have GOT to be kidding me ..

Mr CC is a WOW fan ill double check but in fairness .. if this is BS its pretty low .. I say this for obvious reasons

Work on the principle that a) its real and b) somoene somewhere may be reading it and thinking the same issue.

Cancer-chick

Thanks Mark but in fairness if one was to worry about all the people with issues on this board you would never get out of bed so thats a moot point .. this issue touched me so i replied but if its a fake post then in fairness ...

If its not well great

LegacyUser

'Thanks for the replies i went out today took a long walk and went to the church for the first time in god knows how long since i was 9 i reckon.

i lit a candle for each year i knew her and well i found out some more news from some other friends today which was bad but good in a way i wont go into it but thanks for the supportive replies i was in a pritty bad state earlyer.

And to all you lot saying bla bla 3 years.
i rounded it off as 3 years you really think someone would post something like this as a joke you need a reality check.

But again thanks for the replys its just been a hard couple of days thanks for the support'

ryanah

LostMyFriend wrote:

I found out yesterday that my friend sammy from holland died
we never met each other in person but spent every day with each other for 3 years from the time we woke up to the time we went to sleep,

We met playing in a online game called wow and hit it off strait away,
She was one of those people every loved to be with and talk to and we got to know each other so well over the years we told each other stuff we never told anyone else.

She helped me through my anxiety and depression for the last four years and i recently got my claim as i took legal action and everything seemed to be going great and looking up.

We planed to meet up real soon i was going to fly over it was the reason i got over my depression and social anxiety .

She got had cancer and was in hospital for a few months then she got better and it went away and never came back.Things were great talked about what we were going to do and when i came over and i was so looking forward to finaly being with her i thought she was the one for me.

Then she got ill again with some form of infection in her intestin she didnt know what it was and never told me how serious it really was and i just made a get well card and sent it to her two weeks ago her friend told me she loved card and yesterday i got a email from a family member telling me she passed away on the 8th may.

And im so heart broken and angry and i cant stop crying this girl ive spoken to every day of the week for the past 3 years is gone and now i dont know what to do i cant handle it i miss her so much , i feel like killing myself for the chance we mite see each other again...

its not fair she was only 21 and i dont know what to do i just hurt so bad from her loss...

Did you contact her family? Are you sure she is deceased?