Well if you're in a 4 year relationship and can't ask him something (granted, it is something big) then what validity does your relationship have in the first place? If ye really love each other it should be open, no secrets, unconditional.
As stated by other posters, you need to ask him.
If he is gay and your relationship is about to end, would you not prefer to hear it from his mouth in the privacy of his/your own home, than to get that information back second-hand?
I wish I could but I can't u don't understand and I don't blame u u guys are so helpful thanks x
but i love him so much he's so good to me he makes me sooo happy always taking me for dinner and shopping and things. i dont know what to say anymore. i think im in shock my whole world has frozen
Look at the end of the day all these decisions are hard. But you have to see the light at the end of the tunnel. You are so worried about confronting your bf but it cud be nothing. I remember dreading and putting off for months coming out but once I did it was like OMG what was i worrying about.
What has he done that's "disgusting"? And how old are you both do you mind me asking.
OP if you don't talk to him and find out what's going on no matter what you do it's always going to be in the back of your mind. What's the point in living a lie just because it's embarrassing to you?
If you can't talk to him about it then I don't think there's anything left to be said. You came here for advice and that is exactly what we've given you but if you can't use it then I don't think we can help you further.
I would suggest you to evaluate your relationship and see if you're going on the path you want to. Communication is important and if you don't have that then how do you expect to sort through problems such as the one at hand?
I thought I saw him fiddling while looking at laptop through gap in door then checked later and a pic of a guy model with a six pack was in his last viewed sites
I think thats a bit weak to go on. Look just talk to him
no im quite sure
There's just too many explanations to what you saw. I'm not sure what you want to here in this thread. Yes he might be gay, he might be bisexual, he might have been curious or he was really "fiddling" to straight porn and deleted that off the history and all that was left made it look that way.
It's still not going to solve anything unless you talk to him.
The fact he is looking at porn indicates their might be something wrong with the realtionship. Really OP You just have to talk to him. I'll say no more but every1 here is trying to help you
I'm not being funny, but i'm curious about this too. The fact that you can't talk to him and that you define happiness as being 'taken for dinner and shopping', you don't sound very mature OP (no offence).
Happiness to me with my missus is both of us being able to trust each other unconditionally, being able to share our highest highs and lowest lows, and most importantly, being able to talk to each other about anything, which again, is what you have to do.