Haven't slept a wink, am going through the emotions at the moment, happy,sad,paranoid etc..
Long story short, have been working part time in a shop for nearly 2 years now, work with a couple of really nice people, one in particular who I have always had great fun and just seem to get on so well with.
Anyway she's a few years older than me but I find her extremely attractive. She's married 3 years, to who always seems like a nice bloke, but all I ever hear from my other workmates is the way he treats her, not good things atall apparently.. I've always put it aside as hearsay and gossip.
It's always been a silly fantasy of mine, being with her, but never once imagined it would be a reality. I'm shy enough and I tend to fend off flirtatious banter in work, just a case of not knowing what to say or trying to come across as a nice guy ! I know she's fond me, in a kind of, 'if only i was 5 years younger way', but it'd all been harmless kinda stuff till today.(I'm 21, she's 26)
So closing up for the day, and we're just having a laugh and whatever happened, she kissed me, I responded(fcuk that, WE kissed), but 10, maybe 15 seconds later, I just said "This isn't fair" and went about the closing duties and left without saying anything or even looking at her.
I'm in work tomorrow, and really feel so awkward. Fact is, the kiss was amazing, felt a tingling I've never felt before, and I'm a year out of a 2 year relationship, and it was just a bloody kiss!
But a) She has a husband who I've never had any reason to dislike, bar some gossiping from colleagues which I tend to ignore.
b) I feel like just saying sorry when I can, but I'll be fuming and very confused if she doesn't apologise aswell, I'm just freaking out here basically.
I've no intention of getting involved with her, It's not fair on her husband or on her. If there's stuff going on in her marriage, I can't be the one she can get a release from.
How should I approach this best? All I want to do is get the head down and work, but I just cringe every second I think of going into work and seeing her.