I seem to have exhausted all options here on this one. I'm in my late 20's and i'm in college and working. I 've been going out with my girlfriend for 2/3 years. And for as long as i can remember, not get excited about anything in life! If i do get the odd bit of excitement about something it is over shadowed by this sense of wanting to get it over with quickly, when it actually comes around. I sometimes have to pretend to be excited about things and then n i feel so fake, its that or be labeled a grumpy bastard.
I always worry about the next impending event and it seems to take over my life until it has passed, but is quickly followed by the next. I'm v.happy with my GF, but my unwillingness to commit to do things and overall indecisiveness about things is going to destroy us i feel. I build things up in my head, so much to the point of making myself physically sick, it's not good for me and i don't know what to do.
I'm in college, but i am desperately unhappy there and feel like just not going back. I feel that if i leave, people will think i'm a drop out/waster. I always feel that i'm just doing things in life to make other people happy, and never do what i want to do. Do other people ever experience things like this? How do i break the cycle? Any advice would be great.