Originally Posted by Captain Graphite
That's great to hear.
I hope you continue this crawl, and eventually turn it into a sprint and escape for good.
It's dawned on me recently that I'm actually in a fairly good position to "crawl out" myself. It's not the future that scares me (mostly) but the past. If I could just make peace with stuff that has happened, and is over and done with, I'd be ok. Problem is, I don't know how to do that. I've done the anti-depressants thing (and I must say Efexor is still working well for me) and the therapy thing....but there are certain demons that refuse to die. One person, in particular, continually haunts me; even though I haven't seen nor heard of him for ages, the very thought of him reduces me to an obsessive, moany, self-pitying wreck. At this stage, I obviously only have myself to blame, and it's actually a little creepy how much I dwell on the past even though I know I can't change it now.
If I can finally kill the demons of the past and learn to focus only on the future, I actually think I might be ok. It's so much easier said than done though....
Just keep talking it out, that's what I found helps. One thing that we have to accept about the past is that it's over and done with and can't be changed, no matter how many times we think about what could have been done differently. And don't blame yourself, none of us can change what we think about overnight sadly. Don't think there'd be such a thing as depression if we could!
One of my friends is moving over to China to teach English in August actually
How are you finding it over there?
Originally Posted by Gremlinertia
Am trying to move things along in my life, have to say that so far the hospital's mental health services have been appalling. Now i'll also say that i have friends who have had positive experiences so i'm not trying to write it off, although i must say a hospital without a psychologist is an amazing state of affairs.
Anyway, having a weird time of late, won't complain much because It's not constant despair, but the mood swings are nuts. Elation, rage and blackness with patches of exhaustion, it's certainly keeping me on my toes. Help is proving a problem too. As i said the hospital is not going well, been calling them everyday this week to try get any word out of them, nothing doing. So back to my doc so he was on to the hospital too. Head off brick wall.
I'll persist though, even standing still is a negative move in current mindset. Will tangle with officialdom again monday. Hope the rest of ye are keeping fairly ok..
That's awful, there's nothing worse than waiting around to get appointments sorted out >.< Just keep the pressure on, and especially get your doctor to do it too. Personally I found the hospital mental services good and quick to respond, but I was referred to them after ending up in casualty which kind of hurried it up a bit. Don't recommend that though obviously!
Make sure to keep a note of the mood swings; always important to keep track of them.