[starviewadams]

Originally Posted by Lia_lia

Funny how consoling a friend of mine who lost someone to suicide this weekend has triggered the absolute hell out of me. Well, I haven't been great recently anyway but I think that just hit it off.

I haven't felt like this in years. I just want to really, really hurt myself. Like really bad.

Oh fun!

Argh.


I hate talking like this, makes me sound like a complete tool.

If it's possible for you to talk to someone you trust(friend/relative/counsellor etc) about how you're feeling I'd really recommend it.Just even venting helps a great deal.

My cousins best friend took her own life about 2 years or so ago and consoling my cousin (who doesn't know I suffer from depression) about it kinda set things off for me badly and led to a bad bit of self harming which I deeply regret now.

If I had of had somebody to bounce my thoughts off back then like I do now I probably wouldn't have resorted to hurting myself.

Hope you feel better soon

[Princess Peach]

Originally Posted by BipolarMe

Hi. I need direction please people.I've just discovered I am depressed (self-diagnosed, but trust me, I tick too many boxes to be wrong) and now have no idea what to do next. Just read the last 20 pages of this thread and I'm sorry to hear some of the thoughts you guys are experiencing. I am also glad that I'm not alone in this.

I did have a large post but somehow managed to close the tab and lose it so i'll summarize now. I'm officially scared to death. I'm a male, early thirties, mature student. I cannot bring this topic up to my family as they would not understand.Same with friends -any I still actually have around. I do not want to go to my local GP as I live in a small village and have trust issues as I was in college before with the reception girl who gives out the prescription forms.
pls help

btw this is now the 3rd time I've tried to write this post

Is it a big college you go to? Most universities and ITs have an on campus doctor and free counselling for students too.

[fiendoncheese]

Hi all, i'm sorry if this is the wrong place to post this. I want to go see my doctor and tell him that I think I might be depressed and/or have an anxitiy disorder. But I don't know how. Do I just show up for the open clinic? Do I call ahead? Would it be wiser to keep a mood diary and then just give it to him? I find it extremely hard to talk about it so I was hoping I could maybe throw it at him and hide until he gives me an answer. I know it's not that easy.... I'm sorry if this is silly but i'm scared i'll do it wrong and end up not wanting to ever try again. I guess i'm hoping you guys could tell me what you did? Sorry for the essay. Thanks for reading.

[Princess Peach]

Originally Posted by fiendoncheese

Hi all, i'm sorry if this is the wrong place to post this. I want to go see my doctor and tell him that I think I might be depressed and/or have an anxitiy disorder. But I don't know how. Do I just show up for the open clinic? Do I call ahead? Would it be wiser to keep a mood diary and then just give it to him? I find it extremely hard to talk about it so I was hoping I could maybe throw it at him and hide until he gives me an answer. I know it's not that easy.... I'm sorry if this is silly but i'm scared i'll do it wrong and end up not wanting to ever try again. I guess i'm hoping you guys could tell me what you did? Sorry for the essay. Thanks for reading.

I made an appointment to talk about a few things. I wasn't too sure what I had and my doctor did a blood test to see if there was any medical reason for me to feel that way, tired and weepy all the time. When nothing came back on my blood test we talked about my options. I thought about it for a few weeks and then went back for my prescription and made an appointment with the counselor. After that I just kept my regular doctors appointments.

[phi3]

My little website. Not very good. Was a project on a basic web design course
http://homepage.eircom.net/~misfits

[stupidusername]

had another psych appointment this morning. said i didn't notice any difference with the last upping of my dosage, so she said she'd up it again. wasn't expecting that. so now i'll have another week or so of feeling even more tired and my memory getting even worse. i'm like an alzhimers patient at this point.

something has set me off during the day and now everything's getting to me. i think it's my memory. I forgot i had that appointment this morning, was getting ready for work when I saw my appointment card. and i just come off as stupid in work. well at least i'll be leaving there soon

[degausserxo]

Originally Posted by Miss_Leela

Hi everyone..
First post about my illness... Ive been online all evening looking for a forum or room where i can talk to people about borderline personality disorder and DBT (im starting DBT next month which im excited but extreamly anxious about), been diagnosed recently after seeing countless councillors over the years (First one at the age of 14/15) and being on med's for depression since the age of 18 (I am now 30) Im currently on Lexapro 20mg and Diazipan 10/20mg (as required). Ive read some of the former posts and can relate to a lot thats being said and its comforting to know that im not alone

Hi! I just started DBT today after a couple of assessments. Where are you doing it?

[redgate]

Originally Posted by BipolarMe

oK, thanks guys. I'll hit a GP in the next few days, when I'm feeling a lil more confident. Possibly not the local one, but next place over should be fine. This is a whole new ball game to me. Doesn't seem to be much information about the whole subject on the net.
Especially about help in Ireland, but thats probably to be expected.

Wow.how many times can i re-write a post. At least I'm beginning to understand why I've been such an anal cnut at times over the years.thanks for the advice. appreciated today.

Have a look at AWARE.IE an irish website dedicated to depression sufferers they have a mood diary which may be useful for you to download or copy and try and fill in over the few days before you go to the GP, as a sufferer for many years, I hope I have caught you before you end up being prescribed medication without a history or general enquiry made into your past moods, be armed with as much info as you can muster, I know it is easier said than done. You see imho most GPs are too quick to write a script for antidepressants, there is alternatives to medication, keep the faith

[BipolarMe]

Thanks Redgate. unable to thank any post atm (probably not enough posts by me yet) so had to post the thanks myself. Mood diary sounds like an interesting idea.I'll go get it.cheers!

[pudzey101]

Well again everyone
Just wanted to post to say if anyone is feeling down / upset.. talk to someone. May it be GP, counceller, or someone close to you.
this time last month i was about 2 seconds away from ending it all ( i wont say how)... but by talking to someone and being put on 1 tablet, i have changed completely
I cherish everyday i wake up now and look forward to the day ahead.
November is by far my "worst month" as iv lost someone VERY close to me in the last 2 years, but im a lot more less anxious now that ive talked to someone, rather than bottling things up like i did since i was 8
So anyone reading this.. Keep your head held high and smile dont feel like the worlds on your shoulders
Ive got my 3rd tattoo this week saying "god can take away lifes but cant take away the memory's " in memory of my dad (rip) and everytime i look at it i smile
thanks for reading if you have
pudz

[WalterMitty]

Originally Posted by tommyh1977

Hi all, was put on Lexapro and Xanax today for anxiety & depression which was driving my BP through the roof. I know my current trigger for depression and don't really want to publish it here. I was on Lexapro and Cymbalta at different periods a few years ago for work related stress and tiredness and the only side effect I really had was the inability to orgasm. Does anyone know anything to counteract this side effect as i know its on the way again once i start the Lexapro!!

Ask your doctor. There are other SSRI meds like lexapro that may not have same sexual side effects as lexapro and be equally effective. There are also other non SSRI anti depressants/anti anti anxiety meds that may have less sexual sde effects if all SSRIs are having that effect on you.

[WalterMitty]

Originally Posted by fiendoncheese

Hi all, i'm sorry if this is the wrong place to post this. I want to go see my doctor and tell him that I think I might be depressed and/or have an anxitiy disorder. But I don't know how. Do I just show up for the open clinic? Do I call ahead? Would it be wiser to keep a mood diary and then just give it to him? I find it extremely hard to talk about it so I was hoping I could maybe throw it at him and hide until he gives me an answer. I know it's not that easy.... I'm sorry if this is silly but i'm scared i'll do it wrong and end up not wanting to ever try again. I guess i'm hoping you guys could tell me what you did? Sorry for the essay. Thanks for reading.

Make an appointment for as soon as you can. Write down all the negative symptoms you are having and how often you are having them. Go to doctor with a friend of loved one if possible . The GP deals with this type of thing every day so there is no need to worry. Also ask about a referral to counselling/psychotherapy as this can be very benefical too.

[Karsini]

I was obviously giving off vibes today, when I was in work a courier told me I seem more distant and tuned out than usual. He wasn't wrong either, felt like I wanted to cry but couldn't. I can't stay like this much longer, it's destroying me.

[starviewadams]

Was with my 'normal' friends tonight and it just pisses me off how easy they seem to find life.I feel like a bit of a prick even saying this here but it does.One of them has 3 girls on the go and spent all night moaning about it.I felt like strangling him!

The auld loneliness is getting to me,especially as Christmas edges closer.

[Gremlinertia]

I've been pretty frozen up since my last post here, i know i need to do things, go back to doc primarily, but motivation is non-existent it's just go from bed to work and back. Went out with a few people the other night, and yet again seemed to watch myself from afar acting the clown and being funny and friendly and basically a stranger to the 'real' me, whoever that may be.
It's approaching a bad time of year too, and at the moment i just seem to be swinging wildly between complete despair, and blind rage. I get worried i'll get caught off guard by an impulse. I'm currently trying to write this sort of stuff down for my doctor, but i'm still at a blank page. The simple things have become so difficult that they just dominate everyday life to the point of being unable to think about, or do, anything beyond them.