Funny how consoling a friend of mine who lost someone to suicide this weekend has triggered the absolute hell out of me. Well, I haven't been great recently anyway but I think that just hit it off.
I haven't felt like this in years. I just want to really, really hurt myself. Like really bad.
I hate talking like this, makes me sound like a complete tool.
If it's possible for you to talk to someone you trust(friend/relative/counsellor etc) about how you're feeling I'd really recommend it.Just even venting helps a great deal.
My cousins best friend took her own life about 2 years or so ago and consoling my cousin (who doesn't know I suffer from depression) about it kinda set things off for me badly and led to a bad bit of self harming which I deeply regret now.
If I had of had somebody to bounce my thoughts off back then like I do now I probably wouldn't have resorted to hurting myself.
Hope you feel better soon