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Worked night shifts for two years. Now, even though I have a normal job and lifestyle, I sometimes lapse back into being Nocturnal/Insomniac without even trying. Being awake at 1am is suddenly being awake at 5am.

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For as long as I can remember I spend what should be my time fast asleep trying to go to sleep just lying awake pointlessly, and then yearning to be asleep right at the moment that it's time to wake up, it's horrible. When it's time to wake up is the exact ideal time that I'm just at the exact right spot of nodding off to sleep yet the alarm goes off and it's time to get up then! But it feels like my head has just hit the pillow. I would have such a blissful lovely sleep if I somehow could sleep when it's time to get up even though I'm aware that makes zero sense! I'm in the right state of un-conscious-ness lol when it's time to get out of the fricking bed! It sucks! :/ Going to bed "on-the-double" a few hours earlier to try reach that state I need to be in earlier in the night just doesn't work! It just would leave me totally comatose and I'd be frantic in case I would sleep through my alarm and/or I couldn't afford to miss any morning appointments. Plus doing that always brings something akin to a sober hangover lol which isn't at all pleasant to have!! And it's not really viable to do anyway that I don't think, as it kinda puts yer life outta kilter.

Did used to think it might be something got to do with "growing pains" from youth but I don't know.

It didn't bring me any problems going out to work. Still had to get up as normal and go to work. Even from when I was really small when I kinda got to grips to it, I always jumped out of the bed as soon as my alarm went off giving everyone in the house a heart-attack thinking there was a burglar in the house or something wondering why I was so active from the get-go at that early hour of the morning rather than clinging to the duvet whinging that I didn't want to get up like any kid would, but I kind-of had to be like that! :/