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Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

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  • Closed Accounts Posts: 43,891 ✭✭✭✭Hugo Stiglitz


    cloud493 wrote: »
    Very glad for the weekend.

    Me too Cloud.


  • Registered Users Posts: 8,449 ✭✭✭Call Me Jimmy


    I've hit an awful place just in time for the weekend - another week without anything resembling socialising. Times like these I really wish there was a euthanasia option. It's just hell in that it isn't bad enough to be hell, it' just tolerable/comfortable enough not to push me to do anything


  • Registered Users Posts: 1,159 ✭✭✭stinkle


    I've hit an awful place just in time for the weekend - another week without anything resembling socialising. Times like these I really wish there was a euthanasia option. It's just hell in that it isn't bad enough to be hell, it' just tolerable/comfortable enough not to push me to do anything
    Sorry to hear this Jimmy. When you talk about socialising do you mean you're gonna miss out this weekend or you feel bad about the week thats gone?


  • Closed Accounts Posts: 3,009 ✭✭✭sopretty


    I've hit an awful place just in time for the weekend - another week without anything resembling socialising. Times like these I really wish there was a euthanasia option. It's just hell in that it isn't bad enough to be hell, it' just tolerable/comfortable enough not to push me to do anything

    Howdy partner.

    I can identify with everything you say.

    I can honestly now say, that for the first time in my life, I do not have this desperate longing for something. I don't feel a complete and utter void. I don't feel entirely different to everyone else.
    I can be on my own and chatter on here and get enjoyment out of that. I clean the house, I get enjoyment.
    The persistent sadness and disconnect from the world, is gone now.

    I can only attribute this to the particular combination of anti-depressants that I am currently on.

    I have been years with this crap. Years. Years before I became seriously ill and years where I was unhappy.

    If your doctors can get the medication right, you won't believe the difference in your life.


  • Registered Users Posts: 8,449 ✭✭✭Call Me Jimmy


    @ stinkle
    I don't ever go out during the week, as in even outside. At the weekend I sometimes lift myself for a night out.

    @sopretty
    Despite my situation deteriorating, I have that kind of 'peace' most of the time. I am alone 99.9% of the time so I have gotten somewhat used to it. But I look in the mirror sometimes and it ends all my hope, besides from the fact that I can fall into obsessions like what has happened, about 3 or 4 days just running to the mirror ALL Day.

    I sometimes get hit with this acute pain then, where I feel cast off.


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  • Closed Accounts Posts: 3,009 ✭✭✭sopretty


    I was the same Jimmy.

    I had massive issues. Massive issues.

    I am now feeling (aged 36) what most 'normal' people must feel all of their lives - normal.

    I'm not in pain (emotionally), I don't feel I'm missing out on anything. It's just a contentedness within me.

    Ask a lot from the professionals who are looking after you (assuming there are?).

    I accepted for so long, some sort of 'no I don't feel anxious today' as an acceptable level of treatment. It's not. You need to feel well! That's what those multi-million dollar pharmaceutical companies are supposed to be doing. Don't stop annoying your GP etc. until you feel well!


  • Moderators, Science, Health & Environment Moderators, Social & Fun Moderators, Regional West Moderators Posts: 59,559 Mod ✭✭✭✭Gremlinertia


    It's not easy, where some of ye get the strength from i don't know.. I agree very much with Sopretty here about how we should feel.. I don't want to be doped up, i don't mind having a certain amount of medication to take for life if needs be, but i would like to be able to feel the little joys in small simple things like the dog welcoming you home or walking into a sunbeam.


  • Closed Accounts Posts: 3,009 ✭✭✭sopretty


    It's not easy, where some of ye get the strength from i don't know.. I agree very much with Sopretty here about how we should feel.. I don't want to be doped up, i don't mind having a certain amount of medication to take for life if needs be, but i would like to be able to feel the little joys in small simple things like the dog welcoming you home or walking into a sunbeam.

    Unfortunately I owe my happiness to the medication.

    It was a Lithuanian (locum doctor) who started me on one medication. That addressed one element. A couple of months later, I spoke to my GP about another element, so she prescribed another med on top of this.
    The combination of the two, have saved my life.

    But they have given enjoyment to my life, more to the point.


  • Registered Users Posts: 8,449 ✭✭✭Call Me Jimmy


    I am not seeing anyone or taking anything. The reason being that I have before and I can't take the necessary action myself to get better. I should say, it is a very specific problem I have, anxiety and depression are symptoms of it but I simply can't do anything about it.


  • Closed Accounts Posts: 3,009 ✭✭✭sopretty


    I am not seeing anyone or taking anything. The reason being that I have before and I can't take the necessary action myself to get better. I should say, it is a very specific problem I have, anxiety and depression are symptoms of it but I simply can't do anything about it.

    I also have a specific problem. :)


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  • Closed Accounts Posts: 11,835 ✭✭✭✭cloud493


    I'm just kinda hoping better days are coming. Don't know when. but there you go.


  • Closed Accounts Posts: 43,891 ✭✭✭✭Hugo Stiglitz


    cloud493 wrote: »
    I'm just kinda hoping better days are coming. Don't know when. but there you go.

    I am too. I'm not really doing anything to facilitate it though. Just sorta trundling along - hoping that something will change along the way. It most likely won't though.


  • Registered Users Posts: 286 ✭✭Chiquitita


    I am not seeing anyone or taking anything. The reason being that I have before and I can't take the necessary action myself to get better. I should say, it is a very specific problem I have, anxiety and depression are symptoms of it but I simply can't do anything about it.
    sopretty wrote: »
    I also have a specific problem. :)

    Believe me when I say that the problem I have is pretty extreme, so extreme that I dont tell anyone. It's also something I have ABSOLUTELY no control over. So you're not alone buddies.


  • Moderators, Science, Health & Environment Moderators, Social & Fun Moderators, Regional West Moderators Posts: 59,559 Mod ✭✭✭✭Gremlinertia


    There are some brave brave people on this thread.. I hope that there's a point of relief coming for you all.


  • Registered Users Posts: 286 ✭✭Chiquitita


    You too gremlin.
    I'd be happy to go 3 days without these thoughts. Actually, i'd be happy with 1 just to see what it's like.


  • Moderators, Science, Health & Environment Moderators, Social & Fun Moderators, Regional West Moderators Posts: 59,559 Mod ✭✭✭✭Gremlinertia


    Same here, especially distressing when they come into my mind really suddenly.. Tried posting on other threads there today and ended up unfollowing both because i felt like i was getting the pi$$ taken out of me.. And i probably imagined it.. Ugh.


  • Registered Users Posts: 129 ✭✭HistoryMania


    I've hit an awful place just in time for the weekend - another week without anything resembling socialising. Times like these I really wish there was a euthanasia option. It's just hell in that it isn't bad enough to be hell, it' just tolerable/comfortable enough not to push me to do anything

    Sorry your feeling like this Jimmy. I'm feeling somewhat the same. Last day of college today, and I couldnt bring myself to go for a few drinks with the class. The anxiety I feel anytime I go out and try and socialise I just end up a burden so I dont bother anymore.


  • Registered Users Posts: 395 ✭✭murria


    Tried posting on other threads there today and ended up unfollowing both because i felt like i was getting the pi$$ taken out of me.. And i probably imagined it.. Ugh.

    Honestly Grem, just dont take it personally. I was posting on a thread while back about a new ferry to France, 3 people got seriously bitchy with each other (not even me) about the route I should drive!!! They started baying for blood and telling everyone to put one poor fella on "ignore" and start a new thread without him. The madness of it. But then other times Boards is a wonderful place. Keep the faith. :P


  • Moderators, Science, Health & Environment Moderators, Social & Fun Moderators, Regional West Moderators Posts: 59,559 Mod ✭✭✭✭Gremlinertia


    Oh i know, thanks Murria, just demonstrating how hypersensitive i can get at times. It frustrates and embarrasses me..


  • Closed Accounts Posts: 43,891 ✭✭✭✭Hugo Stiglitz


    Oh i know, thanks Murria, just demonstrating how hypersensitive i can get at times. It frustrates and embarrasses me..

    I'm like that too. It is seriously cringe worthy at times and of course I ruminate like a mofo on it then.


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  • Closed Accounts Posts: 15,676 ✭✭✭✭herisson


    Someone pushed me to the edge today. It was a really low blow and now i just keep going over it and over it in my head. And i shouldnt, i really shouldnt.

    im so mad at myself for it.


  • Moderators, Science, Health & Environment Moderators, Social & Fun Moderators, Regional West Moderators Posts: 59,559 Mod ✭✭✭✭Gremlinertia


    herisson wrote: »
    Someone pushed me to the edge today. It was a really low blow and now i just keep going over it and over it in my head. And i shouldnt, i really shouldnt.

    im so mad at myself for it.

    I can totally sympathise there, Sometimes i can get a flashback from when i was in school of something i feel guilty about and beat myself up for hours. Meanwhile anyone else who was there at the time probably wouldn't remember it even if they were reminded ugh. :o


  • Closed Accounts Posts: 3,009 ✭✭✭sopretty


    Try the following and imagine feeling un-fazed:

    I have had posters repeatedly announce that they have me on their ignore list. I have been told to get off the thread, that a break would do me good, been called an idiot, it has been suggested by posters and moderators to block me, I have been accused of being a convicted drink driver, I've been told to 'piss of to wherever I came from' and I've been told that I am a 'sad excuse for a human being'.

    And that was just today lol.

    So, yes, the medications are working. I can read those comments, not need to react in a manner which will damage me, I can accept that those people have their own issues, and I am completely and utterly calm.


  • Moderators, Science, Health & Environment Moderators, Social & Fun Moderators, Regional West Moderators Posts: 59,559 Mod ✭✭✭✭Gremlinertia


    Kerrrrrist, i'd be in the fetal position unable to leave me room..


  • Closed Accounts Posts: 3,009 ✭✭✭sopretty


    Kerrrrrist, i'd be in the fetal position unable to leave me room..

    Lol, maybe I'm older and wiser, or maybe the medimications might be working :cool:

    My point is, what some other poster says, bears no relation to your validity as a poster or as a human being. It only speaks about them. ;)


  • Moderators, Science, Health & Environment Moderators, Social & Fun Moderators, Regional West Moderators Posts: 59,559 Mod ✭✭✭✭Gremlinertia


    At 35 i'm unlikely to grow too much wiser!

    Logically my mind knows that, but paranoia/self doubt/whathaveyou just won't let me be convinced.


  • Closed Accounts Posts: 43,891 ✭✭✭✭Hugo Stiglitz


    Ruminating and cringing sucks.

    I'm definitely just getting old but no wiser here.

    Woke up in a weird dreary mood this afternoon.


  • Registered Users Posts: 4,400 ✭✭✭lukesmom


    Feel so alone right now :(


  • Closed Accounts Posts: 650 ✭✭✭handbagmad


    Unbelievably strong anxiety today
    Feels like my heart is going to burst out my chest
    No idea where this came from had a run of a good few 'normal' days


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  • Registered Users Posts: 8,449 ✭✭✭Call Me Jimmy


    hold your breath for a few seconds and just focus on the overall feeling and say to yourself 'Where exactly is the sensation' and then 'It is not good or bad. not good or bad'.

    works for me :)


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