Are any of us Really atheist?

This is something I've been thinking about for a long time now and felt I had to ask it. If we are really really honest with ourselves are any of us truely atheist? I mean I know we claim to be, I know we post here and we like to try and argue reasons for why we say we don't believe in God, but deep down all of us believe a little bit.

We've all felt the touch of God at some stage in our lives, but because it's such a scary thing to contemplate that there is something out there greater than we are, and there will be consequences for us when we die, it's just easier to pretend it isn't real and hope we are right and we won't have to pay for our sins. We accept things that we clearly know are evil and wrong and unnatural like homosexuality and abortion, because we have be conditioned by a secular society to do so. We sort of clutch at straws in things like evolution or unproven and untested fringe science to try and convince ourselves that the thing that every fibre of or being is telling us is the truth is wrong. We point to tiny inconsistancies in the Blible and focus completely on them while completely ignoring the obvious evidence of God contained within it.

I understand why we do it. It's the easy answer, if this life is all there is then we are free to do what ever gives us gratification without having to worry about facing the consequences of our actions when the end inevitably comes. We can convince ourselves that death will be just like drifting into an endless sleep, rather than something terrifying and unknown and with judgement.

Well I've said my piece. Like I say, this is something I've wanted to get off my chest for a long time now and I thought there could be no better place to do it than the forum which we all reguarly post in to try and re-inforce our comfortable delusion that this life is all that there is and that we haven't been wrong all these years.

So I pose the question to you all: Can anyone here honestly say, if you look deep into your hearts and souls rather than always excepting the easy answers, that if you are really true to how you feel, you will admit that we all know that there must be a God out there, and the Christian God is the only one that answers the questions you ask yourself when you're alone?