Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

NegativeCreep wrote: »

Can't rest, have an exam which in fecked for and I won't be able to go into second year if I don't pass it and have other stuff to do. Ill just ride it out till next week.

It would probably do you some good if you could even just take half an hour and try to slow down your mind. Maybe have a warm bath or listen to a beautiful piece of music and focus on every note. Try to break down your workload into doable sections. You might not be able to do everything on your list, but you might be able to see what's most important.

Is there anyone there you could chat to? It might just take your mind off things, and you might feel less out of control and panicky. Anyway, sending you a Mammy hug.

tosspot15 wrote: »

I really cant work up the courage to visit my GP without feeling like a complete idiot.

Totally understand that. Going to the GP for anything serious requires courage, from a lump in the boob/balls, sore bum to anxiety/depression. The good thing is GPs have heard it all before. Its what they chose to do for a living. They won't laugh at or judge you, its what they are there for. Pick up the phone tomorrow and make an appointment, it can only do you good.

Not good today at all though mainly self inflicted. Since being diagnosed with GAD I have cut down my alcohol intake to where on a night out I would have 5 bottles (3.5pints) and not very often either.

Anyway, Sunday was my bday and I had purposely said that I was not going out until then. As it was the bank holiday here this weekend and there were nights out on Fri, Sat and Sun.

I had been having a rough week thoughts wise (the ones you wake up with and you wish it was over), but these pass and I'm ok with that.

However, at Notting Hill carnival we started drinking and so it began. From 1.15pm to 1am! I feel utterly disgusted at myself :mad: for not being more sensible and over-doing the drinking after being disciplined the other days.

I didn't make a fool out of myself but I'm still going through the bad hangover - 2 days later. My anxiety is bad, thoughts are bad, pains all over, stomach needs to puke and paranoid. Just want to roll up in a ball and cry. Keep thinking there is something else wrong with me and that alcohol can't do this. Had to go to the chemist to buy a load of things to TRY and help.

On a plus I have tickets to the Arsenal CL match tonight but just don't want to go (this is weird as I'm a big fan!) but have to. Whats really disgusting me is the embarrassment of drinking that much. I have been training really hard the last 2 months and the body has never looked better and p***ed off that I may have ruined it and delayed my goals.

The last thing is that I'm really annoyed at is my cousin. He told me at the weekend (after me asking) what was the families views in London about when I was in hospital. He said that he thought I was just acting up... I explained to him about what it was like (voices in head, thinking your going crazy) and he did come around, but its hurtful when a close relative thinks you're faking! He said that he has had a panic attack before on hoidays and they not that difficult to overcome.

Sorry for the rant, just need to talk.

I'm bored of being bored , anyone get like that?

who_me wrote: »

It's understandable that your cousin doesn't understand - I've suffered from anxiety all my life (and most of my family either have anxiety or depression) and yet I'm not sure I understand it all myself or can explain it. To someone one the 'outside', it must be hard to empathise with.

And (if you don't mind me saying) don't be so hard on yourself either. Part of the problem with therapy can be that we try to fix our lives (i.e. our behaviour) rather than fixing how we look at our lives. Drinking probably doesn't help anyone with anxiety/depression, but having the occasional heavy night out isn't the end of the world. If you're beating yourself up over it, then IMO the main problem still remains: you're still being far too self-critical and self-judgemental. Personally, the point I started making progress with my therapy was when I realised I wasn't doing worse than other people, I was just kicking myself endlessly for every little blip when others would just laugh it off when they did the same.

I would still recommend limiting the heavy nights of drinking, as the hangover/the shakes/the fear can trigger all the anxieties.. ("My stomach feels iffy, I must be feeling anxious about something"). But don't get too worked up about one day/night. IMO you're making progress when you can write off that one night, and get right back on track. "I feel a bit iffy now, but I'll be ok again in a few hours. I know it's just the temporary effects of the alcohol..".

Hi Who,

Thanks for that. The paranoia has left and have accepted the general workings of the odd write-off of a nite. Felling a lot better now and had a good time at the match.

Arsenal won too !!