Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

Cabra · 02-09-2011 6:23pm

SAnx wrote: »

Im not being really mean here but you cant do that to sombody push them away with one hand and tell you they love you with the other im sorry but thats wrong

Thats OK SAnx, I take the confused thinking as a symptom of his depression. I have decided to leave him be, I'm finding the continuous rejection is beginning to affect me and I am of no use to him if I let it affect me. Who knows, maybe he will get help and get in touch with me again, thanks for the advice.

starviewadams · 03-09-2011 2:59am

Have rung in sick to work for the last few days cos I feel so crap,been sleeping ****loads thanks to the seroquel,kinda hope I get sacked so I can go on the dole an bypass life,I struggle so hard to get through each day,and for what?so I can go home every day at 5 and dread the next day so much that I cant sleep,or on weekends so I can get drunk by myself,in my room and dread mondays arrival.

My dad rang me today and asked how I was getting on,I told him the truth,for once and he saaid thats terrible and hung up.

Shrink wants me to consider going into pats for a week or so and I was against it up until now,but I really dont give a **** anymore.a week spent drugged up and in the smoking room doesnt scare me any more.

SAnx · 03-09-2011 3:04am

starviewadams wrote: »

Have rung in sick to work for the last few days cos I feel so crap,been sleeping ****loads thanks to the seroquel,kinda hope I get sacked so I can go on the dole an bypass life,I struggle so hard to get through each day,and for what?so I can go home every day at 5 and dread the next day so much that I cant sleep,or on weekends so I can get drunk by myself,in my room and dread mondays arrival.

My dad rang me today and asked how I was getting on,I told him the truth,for once and he saaid thats terrible and hung up.

Shrink wants me to consider going into pats for a week or so and I was against it up until now,but I really dont give a **** anymore.a week spent drugged up and in the smoking room doesnt scare me any more.

Hi starviewadams, Sounds like your having a bad time of it lately

Have you been feeling this down long??

flutterflye · 03-09-2011 3:09am

starviewadams wrote: »

Have rung in sick to work for the last few days cos I feel so crap,been sleeping ****loads thanks to the seroquel,kinda hope I get sacked so I can go on the dole an bypass life,I struggle so hard to get through each day,and for what?so I can go home every day at 5 and dread the next day so much that I cant sleep,or on weekends so I can get drunk by myself,in my room and dread mondays arrival.

Could you go on illness benefit or whatever it's called?

Printemps93 · 03-09-2011 4:48pm

starviewadams wrote: »

Have rung in sick to work for the last few days cos I feel so crap,been sleeping ****loads thanks to the seroquel,kinda hope I get sacked so I can go on the dole an bypass life,I struggle so hard to get through each day,and for what?so I can go home every day at 5 and dread the next day so much that I cant sleep,or on weekends so I can get drunk by myself,in my room and dread mondays arrival.

My dad rang me today and asked how I was getting on,I told him the truth,for once and he saaid thats terrible and hung up.

Shrink wants me to consider going into pats for a week or so and I was against it up until now,but I really dont give a **** anymore.a week spent drugged up and in the smoking room doesnt scare me any more.

My friend you are not alone , far from it feel free to pm me

jammstarr · 04-09-2011 8:03pm

starviewadams wrote: »

Have rung in sick to work for the last few days - kinda hope I get sacked so I can go on the dole an bypass life,I struggle so hard to get through each day,and for what?so I can go home every day at 5 and dread the next day so much and dread mondays arrival.

I'm the same as you here. I'm multiple warnings already for absences. Before I used to worry so much about losing my job but now I almost wish redundancy would come along. That being said it'd probably be the end of me if it happened.

Printemps93 · 04-09-2011 9:48pm

I think I'm Bipolar

[Deleted User] · 04-09-2011 10:00pm

I had a very good time last week when with my parents, helped me forget most of my problems for the time I was there. I'm now back home as of yesterday, looking at four walls, and it has now come back to me again. Loneliness has a big part to play in what I deal with, yet I don't trust many people outside of my family.

LegacyUser · 04-09-2011 10:00pm

have lost all faith in my doctors, turned my back on them and medication. Cannot afford the cost of my illness anymore. Trying to be possitive every morning but by the end of the day climbing the wall.

SAnx · 04-09-2011 10:03pm

Karsini wrote: »

I had a very good time last week when with my parents, helped me forget most of my problems for the time I was there. I'm now back home as of yesterday, looking at four walls, and it has now come back to me again. Loneliness has a big part to play in what I deal with, yet I don't trust many people outside of my family.

I think its hard to meet people that will give you a little extra time to trust them from having SA i think its very hard to meet new people and get to really know them

LegacyUser · 04-09-2011 10:08pm

just don't know anymore, have lost all faith with my doctors. had to stop buying medication because of financial restraints.
just trying to keep postitive. sleeping only about average 3/4 hours, think i am living on adrennalin.

[Deleted User] · 04-09-2011 10:13pm

SAnx wrote: »

I think its hard to meet people that will give you a little extra time to trust them from having SA i think its very hard to meet new people and get to really know them

Yes, I'm worst with other men due to various reasons which I can't be completely clear of, but I'd assume that the fact I was always bullied by boys at school probably explains most of it. So I'm in the unusual situation of finding it easier to talk to women, well just a little.

I recently lost my cousin to cancer, she was only 29 which made it even more cruel. She had a similar personality to myself... didn't drink or otherwise socialise. My aunt described her as a little childish and I'd consider myself to be that way too in some aspects. It's woken me up a little, telling me I should do something with my life, but I really don't know what I want. I don't know if I should focus on different careers and/or remain (for the most part) friendless and isolated. The thought of the latter isn't really something I want deep down so I'd have to do something to change it; yet the thought of change overwhelms me as does the change itself.

audi a4 2008 · 04-09-2011 10:50pm

Karsini wrote: »

I had a very good time last week when with my parents, helped me forget most of my problems for the time I was there. I'm now back home as of yesterday, looking at four walls, and it has now come back to me again. Loneliness has a big part to play in what I deal with, yet I don't trust many people outside of my family.

hey there karsini,i can relate to u in what u said,i get very lonely two even when my house is full of love for me its just hard to see it at times the mind just powers off:mad:,also i trust no one i have one freind and shes a diamond,i dont have family as i left home at 14 to work but im happy with it and i dont stop my own family from seeing them my issuses with them are my own thats the way it will stay.have u any hobbies u like or want to start it can be a great way to get the mind occupied and keep the taughts at bay.

SAnx · 04-09-2011 10:51pm

Karsini wrote: »

Yes, I'm worst with other men due to various reasons which I can't be completely clear of, but I'd assume that the fact I was always bullied by boys at school probably explains most of it. So I'm in the unusual situation of finding it easier to talk to women, well just a little.

I recently lost my cousin to cancer, she was only 29 which made it even more cruel. She had a similar personality to myself... didn't drink or otherwise socialise. My aunt described her as a little childish and I'd consider myself to be that way too in some aspects. It's woken me up a little, telling me I should do something with my life, but I really don't know what I want. I don't know if I should focus on different careers and/or remain (for the most part) friendless and isolated. The thought of the latter isn't really something I want deep down so I'd have to do something to change it; yet the thought of change overwhelms me as does the change itself.

I really sorry for the loss of your cousin, she was so young. i can see why it would be a wake up call, I would say more important that careers is the stuff that makes you happy or what you want from life should be your goal eg becoming less isolated and more approachable by new friends. life is all to short my friend.

jammstarr · 04-09-2011 11:13pm

Karsini wrote: »

I should do something with my life, but I really don't know what I want. I don't know if I should focus on different careers and/or remain (for the most part) friendless and isolated. The thought of the latter isn't really something I want deep down so I'd have to do something to change it; yet the thought of change overwhelms me as does the change itself.

Hey man, this part of your post clicked with me and I'm sure others would agree too.

I too find the loneliness too much at times but can't bring myself to actually change my ways, be it down to not knowing what to do or the fear of change. What do you think overwhelms you more?

[Deleted User] · 04-09-2011 11:20pm

jammstarr wrote: »

Hey man, this part of your post clicked with me and I'm sure others would agree too.

I too find the loneliness too much at times but can't bring myself to actually change my ways, be it down to not knowing what to do or the fear of change. What do you think overwhelms you more?

It's literally fear of the unknown, not knowing what to expect, not knowing what to say, sometimes it's even as simple as not knowing what to do in the first place. I have a very narrow spectrum of interests and no real hobbies as such, so I don't even know what step to take.

I'm in what I consider a cosy bubble, and venturing outside that bubble terrifies me.

jammstarr · 05-09-2011 12:02am

Karsini wrote: »

It's literally fear of the unknown, not knowing what to expect, not knowing what to say, sometimes it's even as simple as not knowing what to do in the first place. I have a very narrow spectrum of interests and no real hobbies as such, so I don't even know what step to take.

I'm in what I consider a cosy bubble, and venturing outside that bubble terrifies me.

I get ya. I've had anxiety for years now and find it very hard to relate to others any more. Recently I've been having a bit of trouble with my identity as in what I want to do with my life. Just seems can't catch a break.

SAnx · 05-09-2011 12:04am

jammstarr wrote: »

I get ya. I've had anxiety for years now and find it very hard to relate to others any more. Recently I've been having a bit of trouble with my identity as in what I want to do with my life. Just seems can't catch a break.

I wonder is it easier for some one with SA to relate and make friends with some one suffering the same? what ye think?

Printemps93 · 05-09-2011 12:28pm

You know your really a piece of sh!t when you get ignored in the D&A thread

starviewadams · 05-09-2011 2:19pm

I don't think it's helpful or healthy to link your self esteem into posts on an anonymous internet forum,not having a dig at you printemps93,just mean that it really mean bollocks all in the grand scheme of things.

Printemps93 · 05-09-2011 2:54pm

starviewadams wrote: »

that it really mean bollocks all in the grand scheme of things.

You're right . as do I

stupidusername · 05-09-2011 3:48pm

Printemps the only reason I haven't replied to your posts isn't because I dont give a **** but because i'm not exactly in the position myself to say the things you probably should be told.

jammstarr · 05-09-2011 5:28pm

SAnx wrote: »

I wonder is it easier for some one with SA to relate and make friends with some one suffering the same? what ye think?

Hard to know whether or not it could be done. One of us being a mess is hard enough nevermind two lol

jammstarr · 05-09-2011 5:30pm

Printemps93 wrote: »

You know your really a piece of sh!t when you get ignored in the D&A thread

Hey, I don't think anyone here is ignoring. It's just that there's a couple of posts going on at any time that it's easy to get lost or overlooked.

How's your day going for you?

Printemps93 · 05-09-2011 7:48pm

jammstarr wrote: »

How's your day going for you?

Monotonous , dull , sh!t all around, Lonely , pointless

yours?

SAnx · 05-09-2011 7:52pm

jammstarr wrote: »

Hard to know whether or not it could be done. One of us being a mess is hard enough nevermind two lol

Ha full time job hey !

I dono when i went on the SA course we all really well geled ya know, their was a certin security in everyones insecuritys ya know? Personally i think people with SA are some of the nicest people

jammstarr · 05-09-2011 9:05pm

Printemps93 wrote: »

Monotonous , dull , sh!t all around, Lonely , pointless

yours?

Essentially the same but am trying to stay somewhat positive - easier said than done alas

SAnx wrote: »

Ha full time job hey ! I dono when i went on the SA course we all really well geled ya know, their was a certin security in everyones insecuritys ya know? Personally i think people with SA are some of the nicest people

It's not just the fear, it's the blues too - combined they can be testing on a relationship. Add in someone else with similar issues and it could turn toxic fairly quickly.

Printemps93 · 05-09-2011 9:32pm

jammstarr wrote: »

Essentially the same but am trying to stay somewhat positive - easier said than done alas

making matters worse my psych don't have 2 grains of salt to put together

Princess Peach · 05-09-2011 10:41pm

Bleuch, was talking to a friend who's been on medication for 10 years and she said its caused havock to her metabolism and caused her to gain weight. Then I did a Google search (bad idea I know!) and found a few articles about my medication and weight gain and now I'm worried that might be the cause of mine.

Been doing so well lately. This weekend were my first bad days in ages. Weight is getting me down though. Was supposed to try come off my meds early next year, but I'm moving country by myself early January so would need to start working on it with my doctor now. But maybe its not such a good idea with a big change coming.

Just wanna go back to the weight I was, but still be happy!

Fraize · 05-09-2011 10:49pm

Hi Princess Peach,

Which kind of medication are you talking about ?

Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

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