Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

nesf · 05-11-2012 8:37am

Woke at 4am after getting to sleep finally at 2am. Mentally I'm fine but my body seems to be convinced that it's depressed. Maybe it's the Lithium part-relieving the depression or something.

lowlife · 05-11-2012 11:12pm

Fandango wrote: »

Only read the first few posts here but i would be in the same boat. The friends i grew up with for the most part didnt understand it at all. I suffer from anxiety and panic and while i tend not to admit it, probably mild depression also. Dont think of myself as depressed but having said that im worried and down about alot of things going on in my life so i suppose i probably am to some extent. The main thing that worries me is since i got the anxiety and panic, my dependance on drink has grown and grown. Started out having a drink before i went out to pubs as a sort of anxiety relief but has gotten to the stage now where i stay in, talk in here or chatrooms and have a few cans or shoulder of vodka almost every night. Easy answer is to stop doing it i know but easier said than done. My question mainly is does anyone else find themselves using alcohol as a crutch and eventually feeling like you need it to be sociable after getting anxiety? To be honest i almost feel like i cant talk to people without it these days, altho a few lads i know have been massively helpful recently on realising everyone has problems, some show em, some dont but that im certainly not alone on it. The alcohol thing is starting to scare me tho as the fear of getting physical illness from it is adding to the anxiety...unless i have a few and the cycle starts.

I went through a total nightmare trying to 'self-medicate' with alcohol. Nearly killed myself. After many attempts at stopping drinking, I finally, finally managed it, and haven't had a drink for 8 years. Believe me, if I can do it, anyone can do it. Seems like you have to go through some 'rite-of-passage' before you finally get it. Not a great fan of AA, but was totally unaware of the dangers of heavy drinking. Good luck and best wishes.

Hersheys · 05-11-2012 11:35pm

Asked for urgent appt with counsellor. Got one for next Tuesday

noah45 · 06-11-2012 8:02am

Wel done.

Hersheys · 06-11-2012 9:51am

noah45 wrote: »

Wel done.

Just sucks I've to wait that long

neemish · 06-11-2012 6:18pm

Hersheys wrote: »

Asked for urgent appt with counsellor. Got one for next Tuesday

Is it with the same person as before?

Hersheys · 06-11-2012 9:26pm

neemish wrote: »

Is it with the same person as before?

Yep

really don't wanna go there but I've no other options unf!

neemish · 07-11-2012 11:06am

That's a pity. Going though a very rough patch myself at the moment. Starting to wonder if there's something in the air!

banquo · 08-11-2012 1:33am

I. Really. Hate. Derealization / depersonalisation / whatever it's ****ing called. Never stops being scary.

banquo · 08-11-2012 1:57am

Update: anxiety is a non-stop, action-packed pile of ****.

KyussBishop · 08-11-2012 7:56am

I'm not doing too bad, started a group thing a little over a month ago which is going rather well (it's a lot more focused than a group where strangers meet up, as it's the same group every week where people know each other), which I think may make real good progress with my anxiety issues going forward; recommend it (you'll have no way to know what it's like until you do it, but it's very good) but go someplace private, because public service stuff is mostly crap.

Right now though, since leaving a session last night, I've got a bloody ferocious knot in my stomach which I'm not sure what triggered it, and that just won't leave me (and there's no specific accompanying anxiety or stress; just the constant knot/discomfort, and feeling crap).
It's a bit unusual really, as even when I'm going through something anxiety-inducing, I don't normally get a knot like this; maybe it's a sign that the session was getting somewhere, but I really want to be rid of it as it's going to make for a pissy day otherwise.

What do others do to get rid of a knot like this, when they get one?

Temaz · 08-11-2012 2:46pm

banquo wrote: »

I. Really. Hate. Derealization / depersonalisation / whatever it's ****ing called. Never stops being scary.

I suffer from it as well, it's terrible.

flyswatter · 08-11-2012 4:11pm

banquo wrote: »

I. Really. Hate. Derealization / depersonalisation / whatever it's ****ing called. Never stops being scary.

Can you describe what this feels like when it happens?

Temaz · 08-11-2012 5:09pm

flyswatter wrote: »

Can you describe what this feels like when it happens?

For me I feel like I'm out of my body watching myself but I'm also aware that I am not out of my body, I know that doesn't make sense but it's how it feels. I am experiencing the feeling of being both in and out of my body.

Can feel like a dream.

It's confusing and leads me to being confused and dizzy.

It's a bizarre experience.

Gremlinertia · 08-11-2012 8:23pm

Temaz wrote: »

For me I feel like I'm out of my body watching myself but I'm also aware that I am not out of my body, I know that doesn't make sense but it's how it feels. I am experiencing the feeling of being both in and out of my body.

Can feel like a dream.

It's confusing and leads me to being confused and dizzy.

It's a bizarre experience.

I feel like that at times, have been putting it down to anxiety, however i'm not long into the diagnosis/prognosis process yet. Glad not to be alone in it..

LegacyUser · 08-11-2012 10:41pm

Incredibly low tonight. hate this. Harmed already.... hope zanax will help till tomorrow
Ashblag

RobbingBandit · 09-11-2012 12:44am

I'm going through a phase of emptiness, I just don't give a **** about anything. I am a noncompliant diabetic, I have stopped taking my Lexapro and I now sleep with a box of Solpadine, Anadin and Neurofen under my pillow for that moment when I finally get up the courage to take them all. I Just feel nothing.

darkhorse · 09-11-2012 1:03am

RobbingBandit wrote: »

I'm going through a phase of emptiness, I just don't give a **** about anything. I am a noncompliant diabetic, I have stopped taking my Lexapro and I now sleep with a box of Solpadine, Anadin and Neurofen under my pillow for that moment when I finally get up the courage to take them all. I Just feel nothing.

Please take your diabetic medication, my friend, from one diabetic to another.

neemish · 09-11-2012 11:32am

RobbingBandit wrote: »

I'm going through a phase of emptiness, I just don't give a **** about anything. I am a noncompliant diabetic, I have stopped taking my Lexapro and I now sleep with a box of Solpadine, Anadin and Neurofen under my pillow for that moment when I finally get up the courage to take them all. I Just feel nothing.

I don't want to say "I know how you feel" because each one of us is different. But been there, done that. Please please please reach out to some one in the "real" world. You've taken the first step by telling us, but now is the time to tell some one - a doctor, a friend, Samaritans. I know it doesn't feel like it, but this will pass eventually.

hugs to you

RubyXI · 09-11-2012 12:44pm

I know I should go to a doctor. I want to be fixed. I have nothing. Right I'll go to a doctor. Aaaaaaagh no I can't I can't I can't. I'll just keep the depression it's easier than going to a doctor....

This is the workings of my mind. It is not controllable.

darkhorse · 09-11-2012 1:06pm

phi3 wrote: »

I know I should go to a doctor. I want to be fixed. I have nothing. Right I'll go to a doctor. Aaaaaaagh no I can't I can't I can't. I'll just keep the depression it's easier than going to a doctor....

You can, You can. Dont keep the depression. Yor Will be fixed.

banquo · 09-11-2012 1:09pm

Now I'm usually fine for months at a time, then it creeps back for a few days of hell, then goes again.

dinorebel · 09-11-2012 1:23pm

Not meaning to be to flippant but The Verve were wrong the drugs do work(for me at least)

Gremlinertia · 09-11-2012 2:07pm

phi3 wrote: »

I know I should go to a doctor. I want to be fixed. I have nothing. Right I'll go to a doctor. Aaaaaaagh no I can't I can't I can't. I'll just keep the depression it's easier than going to a doctor....

This is the workings of my mind. It is not controllable.

I feel for you, the actual step of going to the doc is really hard, i had lost my friends and much of myself in fact before i went

one thing i found that really helped when i went was i wrote eveything down in the days before i made the appointment, note before i even before i made appointment because as soon as appointment is made your mind goes blank.

At the top, and again, at the end of the note i wrote down that i really didn't feel like too much like talking about it then and there, but he felt he could recommend a medicine or other i would report back in after a suitable time passed..

Doc thought it was a bit different but i didn't give a flying eff, i got started on my road to treatment and improvement.

Sorry for long post, just hoping it might help..

who_me · 09-11-2012 6:32pm

KyussBishop wrote: »

It's a bit unusual really, as even when I'm going through something anxiety-inducing, I don't normally get a knot like this; maybe it's a sign that the session was getting somewhere, but I really want to be rid of it as it's going to make for a pissy day otherwise.

What do others do to get rid of a knot like this, when they get one?

I often get that, particularly if I've been stressed in previous days. I could wake up and my stomach is a complete mess, even though I might not be stressed in that very moment. I'd start saying "I'm stressed, so something must be wrong. I should be worrying about something".

For me, I find taking long, deep breaths with gaps in between helps a lot. (Sounds simplistic, but it works). Plus, continuously reminding myself "just because I'm stressed doesn't mean there's a problem". I now know I tend to exaggerate problems, or even create problems where none exists. Also, just finding something to make me laugh (watching a stupid comedy, spending time with my nieces & nephews, or thinking back to some silly memory) helps unwind the tension too.

Hersheys · 11-11-2012 2:59am

I've done something stupid. I've stopped taking my meds. I forgot a day or two & then it turned into what has been a week. I know I need to take them (getting withdrawal symptoms & am very bad off them thought wise, anxiety wise & depression wise). But to be honest I couldn't be arsed. No longer see the point.

darkhorse · 11-11-2012 3:33am

Hersheys wrote: »

I've done something stupid. I've stopped taking my meds. I forgot a day or two & then it turned into what has been a week. I know I need to take them (getting withdrawal symptoms & am very bad off them thought wise, anxiety wise & depression wise). But to be honest I couldn't be arsed. No longer see the point.

Get yourself arsed and take your meds. There is always a point, You are needed here.

Hersheys · 11-11-2012 10:36am

darkhorse wrote: »

Get yourself arsed and take your meds. There is always a point, You are needed here.

I just don't see the point tbh. I am really bad at the mo, meds aren't helping. Only thing that numbs the pain is benzos but I know they're not a long term option. People in "real life" don't understand. Nobody in my family knows, as in I haven't told them. But of course they know as they're nosy & have found my meds. They make snide indirect comments about my "happy pills" & whenever a mental health ad/issue is on the tv/radio they say how weak people are if they have mental health issues.

To make matters worse I've had to change my medical team - new doctor, new counsellor & they're making me go to a psych - my old dudes understood & kept me under control and on an even keel. Now I'm just in bits.

cloud493 · 11-11-2012 12:09pm

Haven't been having a good time. The only socializing I do is the pokemon league on Tuesday. Other than that, I hurt my thigh on wednesday, still burning.

Gremlinertia · 11-11-2012 5:49pm

@Hersheys can't say i know how you feel, everyone is different, but if that's the type of people around you, you need to get back on meds so you can get your head around getting away from them..

@Cloud Hope your thigh is ok, and you socialise here too.

little steps grasshopper, we're all behind you.

Lets all be anxious/depressed together.

Comments