[girlonfire]

I hear ya cloud. Facebook and what people put up on there means very little imo. Are you okay?

[cloud493]

Yeah, I'm fine right now. Yourself girlonfire?

[girlonfire]

Good. Make sure you're taking care of yourself. I'm doing alright. Little things are getting me down but I'm taking some sound advice I received earlier to set myself small goals to achieve. Just going to take it easy for the next few days. Thanks Cloud,x.

[cloud493]

Sounds like a plan, hope it works out for you I always do, can't be doing with infections or whatever.

[girlonfire]

Glad to hear that. I've had to deal with infections (back when I was actively self-harming) and as you know it isn't pretty, so it's positive that you're preventing that.
Have yo looked into any group or anything like that that helps to deal with self-harming? Or is that not your thing?

[cloud493]

Talking about it isn't my thing really. I've been trying to stay out of this thread, cos I decided since its my choice to do it, I don't have the right to moan, but its just a bad night.

[nesf]

Haven't been in the mood to post. Took a sleeping tablet, slept from 1am-4am. That about sums things up for me at the moment.

[Gremlinertia]

Haven't had the energy to post the last while. Saved it all for a wedding i had to go to during the week, back to the couch now drained. The good news is i seemed to have made it through with flying colours which has me happy enough. Felt like i passed a big test. How is everyone else? Thread has kind of gone a little quiet.

Made a heroic effort to try and patch things up. Made the mistake of thinking I had a meaningful friendship with a girl I've known for 6 years, rather than it being exactly the same as any other breakup anywhere, ever. All I can do is laugh. I've already severed ties with any other friends, which really wasn't hard. None of them have even taken the time to ask me if I'm ok.

Going to contact some of the colleges around Dublin during the week and see what's involved in arranging to have my body donated to medical research.

I feel lucid & happy. I'd like to try the medical route again for the sake of others, but it's simply too expensive. It's not an option.

[Totalelf]

On a total low all day, no energy or interest in anything. Feel like kicking the cr*p out of something. Just taken my meds so hopefully I'll sleep.

[ashblag]

an absolute total mess and manic idiot, been talking to the lovely people at the samaratins for the last few days via email. things i wouldnt feel comfortable opening to here. wen will this lift eh?
ill probably me jobless boyfriend less and familyless if they knew what was going through my mind.why is this **** still so taboo...id love to shout it from the bottom of my heart what im feeling but id probably be sectioned

[Pixie-Fairy]

I thought i was kicking ass with this but it looks like im not.

I was feeling strange all week but i just continued on instead of taking any notice of it. But even during this week i felt a little sad but i did something to take my mind if it. Then i do something stupid and then everything hits me so i cried for a bit last night in bed. I have not cried in a while but i did feel like crap when i woke up but i felt like some of the negative energy i had built up was released!!

I need to start talking more and ignoring the weird feeling and the sadness. I hate crying and i dont want it to build up and cause another breakdown, one major one was enough for me, the "mini" ones i can handle to an extent..

[Hersheys]

I'm in a low. I'm not sleeping properly & I'm due a trip to my GP but I can't face him. Seeing my psychologist this week too. Only thing that helps me sleep is lexotan but I don't like taking it unless I'm in a panic. I'm on zyprexa & lexapro also - depression & anxiety with also ridiculously awful nightmares and night terrors. Past few nights not sleeping at all.

[want to disappear]

Have some stuff going on tomorrow that I'm dreading.

Sorry to hear so many are having a tough time sleeping at the moment. The lack of sleep always makes a bad situation worse.

Wishing everyone a peaceful night.

[Hersheys]

I know it's early on in the night but I can't nod off. I need my 8 hours - and I know when I eventually nod off it will be fitfull sleep while dreaming of bad things