Originally Posted by Pedant
---> Conspiracy theories forum (especially the part about your homosexuality being a product of the media)
I never listened to any of those artists (Madonna, Britney), I thought they were shite. In fact, I mostly listened to alternative, rock and metal, yet I still turned out gay. I doubt very much that there's some subliminal force inside music that turns people gay. As for television, I never really watch it, only documentaries from time to time. Afterall, I have the internet.
I only get gay inclinations when ever my emotions are aroused by femininity that I have experienced through media. Having never actually experienced the gay bar enviroment or acted physically with the same sex in a promiscuous manner I can not act on my thoughts just yet as my thoughts seem to be based on faith unfounded on fact. Had I been brought up in an average Irish home watching the TV my entire child hood I believe that perhaps I would be a different person now in many respects. My grandfather can be found in the RTE history books. He was heavily involved in its set up and I trust his word to the T. As a result of my personal upbringing, I can't help but be cynical about the whole thing but at the same time I am not trying to say that there is a conspiracy going on here. I don't for one second advocate that proposition. Often times you can get the effects of a conspiracy without an actual conspiracy going on if that makes sense? Another thing gramps told us along time ago.
I agree, the whole gay thing must form from some sort of genetic predispostion which one could argue that perhaps the subliminal effects of media can lead a person down a completey different sexual path if that person had been influenced by media compared to a person who had not been influenced.
Up to finishing my leaving cert I was only ever interested in girls. I was a horn dog you might say alike to many of the other chaps in my class. I played GAA in school. I can remember going out the summer after the leaving cert with the lads looking for the riode...
Anyways.. I move out, get my own place and start college and I live in a shared house with a TV in each room. I get my own laptop at the same time, I get an Ipod etc etc. After a few months and still to this day I notice I have changed somehow and I can't explain it and as a result I dont know if I am straight, Gay or Bi. I honestly believe the media did it to me.
Had, after school I moved to a jungle (just say I did) my bet would be that I would be happily married to a jungle girl.
Bottom Line here is this really... I am worried I would come out and then in a few years time realise that actually the whole gay thing was just from spending to much time stuck in the media world (monkey see, monkey do) and that if I meet a women and want to marry her I find myself in a possible position of finding it to hard to retract on my coming outness from my peers and elect to stay gay but Deep down I would rather just be a joe soap.... Phew
Now, I want to know is there anyone else like me out there?
Have people come out and realised that actually it was just a phase they went through (probably influenced heavily by modern society) and wished they had not come out?
sorry for long message guys.
I just want help.