I apologize for what no doubt will be a novel, but I am absolutely terrified of mice, and I'm wondering how on earth can I even just become a little leas frightened of them.
I'm so scared of them Ive developed almost like a 6th sense for them - I can sense when they're present. I'm ALWAYS the first person to notice "hey, there's a mouse" or always the first to actually see one.
Even when there isn't one present, I'm actively aware that one might appear at anytime, and take the nessessary precautions to avoid a situation whereby I might see one. Walking down a narrow road with ditches either side of me, I'll make sure to walk in the centre of the road as they're most likely going to be lurking in the ditch.
I can't look at them on TV, I can't look at them on the Internet, on paper, I can't even bear to look at animated versions of them. It just creeps me out.
I seen one this morning -- which is why Im writing this thread, and I lost my sh1t completely. I freaked out. When I purchased 5 mousetraps, I couldn't bear to pick them off the shelf (despite them being brand new in a box) and carry them to the till. My friend was working there this morning luckily enough and he carried them and put them in a bag for me, and my skin was crawling at even having to carry the bag the traps were in.
I can feel phantom mice crawling on me, the least little sound is making me on edge and I keep seeing the disgusting little beast everytime I think about it.
It's completely irrational and I need it to stop. I'm frightened of plenty other things, like spiders, but it's not the same kind of frightened. I see a spider, I calmly ask my dad/brother/boyfriend to get rid of it, but if I see a mouse, I lbecome so frightened I can't even get words out, literally.
If they cross the road in front of me while driving Ill swerve the car rather than drive across it because I couldn't bear having bits of it underneath me. Just writing this is giving me shivers.
How do I make it stop